The Supreme Doctrine - neo-alchemist
The Supreme Doctrine - neo-alchemist
The Supreme Doctrine - neo-alchemist
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THE COMPENSATIONS<br />
that I see my Principle in the image onto which I have projected myself in an<br />
exclusive identification.<br />
<strong>The</strong>se various compensations can evidently be combined among<br />
themselves. Adoration in particular is combined, more often than not with<br />
loving and being loved, in the sense of affirming and being affirmed, serving<br />
and being served.<br />
Every compensation, or imaginative constellation, constitutes in the<br />
being an element of fixity; but it is a dynamic fixity, like a stereotyped<br />
gesture of which I have the habit and which represents a fixity in my<br />
movement. <strong>The</strong> fixed compensation tends towards a certain ensemble of<br />
moving, living phenomena. Each compensation is a certain stereotyped form<br />
of living. I must therefore distinguish such compensation—which tends to<br />
make me live in such and such a manner—from the fact that I live, or not, in<br />
that manner; for it may happen that I have in myself such compensation and<br />
that nevertheless I do not live according to it, according to the bargain<br />
towards which it tends. This is clearly seen in neuroses; and the neurotic can<br />
be defined as a being who is badly compensated, incapable of living in<br />
accordance with his compensations. Let us imagine a being in whom exists<br />
the compensation 'loving and being loved', 'participation in the collective life<br />
by an exchange of services'. This being comes up against the wickedness of<br />
the outside world, a mischance unjustly wounds him. If the compensation<br />
were entirely inverted he could live in accordance with it so inverted: his life<br />
could find a sense in hatred and vengeance and he would be compensated in<br />
that way. But often the inversion only partially takes place, in its practical<br />
and not its theoretical aspect; the subject refuses his participation in the<br />
outside world in each particular eventuality, but continues to wish to<br />
participate in general. He would like to hit someone else, to wound him, in a<br />
particular practical action, but he cannot act thus because he persists in<br />
wanting to love, to serve, in general.<br />
One often says that such persons have not found their compensations,<br />
but that is not true because each person always finds his compensations.<br />
<strong>The</strong>se people have found their compensations but they are not able to live in<br />
accordance with them. <strong>The</strong> neurotic has split, divorced compensations in<br />
which he cannot live. He is paralysed between hatred and love of the same<br />
object. <strong>The</strong> impossibility of investing his vital energy therein entails a<br />
perturbation of the inner metabolism of his energy. <strong>The</strong> aggressiveness of the<br />
individual acts against itself; there is distress. This distress, felt up-stream of<br />
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