The Supreme Doctrine - neo-alchemist
The Supreme Doctrine - neo-alchemist
The Supreme Doctrine - neo-alchemist
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ON HUMILITY<br />
whole with impartiality I see that it is comparable with the bursting of a<br />
fireworks-rocket. <strong>The</strong> shooting upwards of the rocket corresponds with the<br />
intra-uterine life during which everything is prepared without yet being<br />
manifested; the moment at which the rocket bursts is the birth; the spreadingout<br />
of the luminous shower represents that ascending period of my life in<br />
which my organism develops all its powers; the falling back of the shower in<br />
a rain of sparks which expire represents my old age and death. It appears to<br />
me at first that the life of this rocket is an increase, then a decrease. But in<br />
thinking about it more carefully I see that it is, throughout its duration, a<br />
disintegration of energy; it is a decrease from one end to the other of its<br />
manifestation. So is it with me as an individual; from the moment of my<br />
conception my psycho-somatic organism is the manifestation of a<br />
disintegration, of a continual descent. From the moment at which I am<br />
conceived I begin to die, exhausting in manifestations more or less<br />
spectacular an original energy which does nothing but decrease. Cosmic<br />
reality radically contradicts my pretension towards the 'on high'; as a personal<br />
being I have in front of me only the 'beneath'.<br />
<strong>The</strong> whole problem of human distress is resumed in the problem of<br />
humiliation. To cure distress is to be freed from all possibility of humiliation.<br />
Whence comes my humiliation? From seeing myself powerless? No, that is<br />
not enough. It comes from the fact that I try in vain not to see my real<br />
powerlessness. It is not powerlessness itself that causes humiliation, but the<br />
shock experienced by my pretension to omnipotence when it comes up against<br />
the reality of things. I am not humiliated because the outer world denies me,<br />
but because I fail to annul this negation. <strong>The</strong> veritable cause of my distress is<br />
never in the outside world, it is only in the claim that I throw out and which is<br />
broken against the wall of reality. I deceive myself when I complain that the<br />
wall has hurled itself against me and has wounded me; it is I that have injured<br />
myself against it, my own action which has caused my suffering. When I no<br />
longer pretend, nothing will injure me ever again.<br />
I can say also that my distress-humiliation reveals the laceration of an<br />
inner conflict between my tendency to see myself all-powerful and my<br />
tendency to recognise concrete reality in which my omnipotence is denied. I<br />
am distressed and humiliated when I am torn between my subjective<br />
pretension and my objective observation, between my lie and my truth,<br />
between my partial and impartial representations of my situation in the<br />
Universe. I shall only be saved from the permanent threat of distress when<br />
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