The Supreme Doctrine - neo-alchemist

PASSIVITY OF THE MIND
not destroy my identification with my organism—what is already realised in
my egotistical condition—it will destroy the sleep which now affects my
identification with the rest of the Universe, what sleeps in me today beyond
the illusory limits of the Ego. Then my identification with the totality of
Manifestation will awaken.
These ideas are necessary in order to understand the correct doctrine
and to avoid adhering to vain 'methods' of realisation. As long as I considered
as 'bad' my imaginative-emotive processes and the exclusive identification
with the Self, I was necessarily led to struggle against the Ego, and so against
my egotistical condition, and so against my own machine concerned in this
condition; from which resulted a perpetual inner disharmony. As soon as I
understand, on the contrary, that my condition identified with the Self is not
'bad' but merely incomplete, I understand at the same moment that I must live
fully this stage of development in order to pass beyond it. My present
misfortune is not that I am living this stage but that I am not living it to the
full integrally.
Let us see how all this is applicable in a concrete manner to the object
of our study. When I see the wastage of energy that takes place in my
imaginative-emotive processes I am tempted to suppress these; and since
these processes are linked with the refusal of my mental consciousness to
accept the mobilisation of my energy I am tempted to make an effort not to
refuse this mobilisation. But such efforts do not upset my inner situation, they
merely complicate it; for these efforts to stop refusing are in fact the refusal
of a refusal, and this contraction opposed to a spasm could not result in a
relaxation. Inversely to what is true in algebra, this 'no' said to a 'no' does not
result in a 'yes'. The suppression of the refusal of the mobilisation of my
energy is therefore impossible. Besides, this suppression is undesirable since,
as we have seen, this refusal forms part of a process which is not 'bad' but
merely unfinished.
What is regrettable is not that I refuse the mobilisation of my energy,
but that I refuse it incompletely, too late, and in consequence ineffectively.
My present refusal is not a true and effective refusal but a vain protestation in
face of a fait accompli; and that because it succeeds the inner phenomenon
that I refuse. My mental consciousness functions actually in a reactive and
not an active manner, its action does not balance the action of the organic
consciousness for it merely replies to the manifestations of that
consciousness.
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