The Supreme Doctrine - neo-alchemist
The Supreme Doctrine - neo-alchemist
The Supreme Doctrine - neo-alchemist
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THE MECHANISM OF ANXIETY<br />
participate in it by his own nature (for one cannot lack something without any<br />
knowledge of that thing).<br />
Anguish is then an illusion since its causes are illusory. Besides this<br />
theoretical demonstration we can obtain a practical demonstration of it; we<br />
can prove directly, intuitively, the illusory character of anguish. If in fact at a<br />
moment at which I suffer morally, resting in a quiet spot, I shift my attention<br />
from my thinking to my feeling, if, leaving aside all my mental images, I<br />
apply myself to perceiving in myself the famous moral suffering in order to<br />
savour it and to find out at last what it is—I do not succeed. All that I succeed<br />
in feeling is a certain general fatigue which represents, in my body, the trace<br />
of the anxiety-phenomenon and of the wastage of vital energy which has<br />
taken place through the fear of death. But of suffering itself I do not find a<br />
scrap. <strong>The</strong> more I pay attention to the act of feeling, withdrawing thereby my<br />
attention from my imaginative film, the less I feel. And I prove then the<br />
unreality of anguish.<br />
One will understand this still better by comparison with physical pain.<br />
If I have a painful gumboil, the more I imagine the less I suffer physically;<br />
the less I imagine, on the contrary, shifting my attention from thinking to<br />
feeling, the more keenly I am aware of my pain. This is because the pain is<br />
real, not imaginary.<br />
We do not mean to say that there is no perception in the course of<br />
moral suffering; we say that it has an illusory suffering, which is not the same<br />
thing. If a man sees a mirage in the desert one cannot say that he does not see<br />
it; he sees, indeed, but that which he sees does not exist. In the same way,<br />
when I suffer morally I perceive, but I perceive nothing that really exists.<br />
What then happens in me when I suffer morally? <strong>The</strong>re is, as we have<br />
seen, in my feeling, the fear of death; this fear uses up my vitality and so<br />
impoverishes my reserve of organic energy; there is in that then an injury<br />
inflicted on my organism, on my body. This injury is not the same as that of<br />
physical pain; the injury of physical pain affects a part of the body, it affects<br />
the body-as-an-aggregate-of-parts. <strong>The</strong> injury of the moral suffering, loss of<br />
energy at its source, affects the body-as-a-whole; which is not indicated in the<br />
sensibility of the organism by any precise pain, but by a general discomfort,<br />
by fatigue, depression, a lowering of vitality. In the course of the moral<br />
suffering there is therefore at the body level, a general depressive discomfort.<br />
During this time, at the psychic level, there are unpleasant, menacing images.<br />
<strong>The</strong> moral suffering results from the association of menacing mental images<br />
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