Preparing for the Miraculous

174 eleven talksafterwards that some sayings and facts could be seen asindicative of what was to happen. So for instance the followingwords of the Mother spoken to Dr. Sanyal on thevery morning of Sri Aurobindo’s passing: “About a yearago, while I was discussing things, I remarked that I feltlike leaving this body of mine. Sri Aurobindo spoke out ina very firm tone: ‘No, this can never be. If necessary for thistransformation, I might go. You will have to fulfil our Yogaof supramental descent and transformation.’ ... After that –this took place early in 1950 – he gradually let himself fallill. For he knew quite well that, should he say ‘I must go’,I would not have obeyed him and I would have gone. Foraccording to the way I felt, he was much more indispensablethan I. But he saw the matter from the other side. Andhe knew that I had the power to leave my body at will. Sohe didn’t say a thing – he didn’t say a thing right to the verylast minute.” 6Later the Mother would concede: “It is absolutely undeniablethat my body has that capacity [of endurance]infinitely more than the body of Sri Aurobindo.” This remindsus of her former saying that she had consciouslychosen her parents not only for their mental but also fortheir physical qualities. She also said later: “I told him that,as to me, it would be absolutely without regret and withoutdifficulty that I would leave my body to go and joinhim ... And he answered: ‘Your body is indispensable forthe Work. Without your body the Work cannot be done.’This is something that was said in 1949, which means a littlemore than a year before he left.” 7Then there is the amazing avowal of the Mother thatshe does not seem to have known that Sri Aurobindo, step6 Prabhat Sanyal: A Call from Pondicherry, in Mother India, December1991.7 Kireet Joshi: Sri Aurobindo and the Mother, p. 103.