Preparing for the Miraculous

sri aurobindo’s descent into death 175by invisible step, let death approach. She has confirmedthis more than once herself. For instance: “You see, he haddecided to go. But he didn’t want me to know that he wasdoing it deliberately. He knew that if for a single momentI knew he was doing it deliberately, I would have reactedwith such violence that he would not have been ableto leave. And he did this: he bore it all as if it was someunconsciousness, an ordinary illness, simply to keep mefrom knowing – and he left at the very moment he had toleave.” Sri Aurobindo had created a blind spot, as it were,in the perception of her who was the Mother of the worldsand had access to all knowledge everywhere if she so desired!Once she said: “I did not believe till the last momentthat Sri Aurobindo was going to leave his body.” And K.D.Sethna commented: “This is correct. On December 3th [SriAurobindo passed away on the 5th] the Mother told methat Sri Aurobindo would soon read my articles. Later,when I asked her why she had let me go to Bombay onDecember 3th, she said that Sri Aurobindo’s going had notbeen decided yet.” 8Initially, except for some minor symptoms of kidneytrouble, there were no signs of serious health problemswhatever. Besides, Sri Aurobindo continued his (outwardly)daily routine as if nothing was the matter. He still wanted towrite on modern poetry and a search was on to provide himwith volumes of such poetry to read. (He appreciated Mallarmé,Whitman, Yeats and Eliot.) He also dictated, at theMother’s request, the important series of articles publishedunder the title The Supramental Manifestation upon Earth.In these articles he expounded the state of affairs at thattime of his Work, of his Yoga of Transformation, explainingthe realization of the “Mind of Light,” and the necessity of8 K.D. Sethna: The Passing of Sri Aurobindo, p. 5.