Preparing for the Miraculous

60 eleven talkschanged the standpoint from which things must be evaluatedor appraised. The standpoint was not at all mental, andit gave the strange inner feeling that lots of things we considergood or bad are not really so ... What was obvious isthat our opinion of what is divine or not divine is not right... In the people too I saw that what helps them become supramental,or prevents them from it, is very different fromwhat we, with our habitual moral notions, imagine. I felthow ridiculous we are.” 13The big pulsationsAt the end of 1958 the time of withdrawal into her roomhad come for the Mother too. She was now 80, and wouldsay later on that the outward signs of her Yoga of transformationwere by most people understood as symptoms ofher advanced age. Of the heroic, superhuman battle withthe old world to create the new, and with the old body tocreate the new, we have the conversations published underthe misleading title Mother’s Agenda. For under the lemma“agenda” the Concise Oxford Dictionary has “a list of itemsof business to be discussed at a meeting ... a list of mattersto be addressed.” Even the Nouveau Petit Robert has underthe same lemma “carnet sur lequel on inscrit jour par jource qu’on doit faire, ses rendez-vous, ses dépenses, etc. – whichmeans “small notebook in which one enters day by daywhat one has to do, one’s appointments, one’s expenses,etc.” What Mother’s Agenda actually does report is whathad been done by her, her experiences, struggles, battles,encounters, and much more. It was actually the diary ofher conversations with Satprem, a French disciple.One of the most important events in the Mother’sYoga of those years took place on 3 April 1962, “after severalweeks of grave illness.” Again she dictated a report of13 Id., pp. 103-104.