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had thoughts <strong>of</strong> mercy towards me, and not only spared and saved me from many<br />
perils and accidents, but crowned me with His loving kindnesses. Thanks to my<br />
God for my education for the ministry. Though almost an orphan, an outcast, the<br />
Lord cared and provided for me the necessary means and friends to finish my<br />
studies, and when ready to be examined, <strong>of</strong> a sudden, did I receive the <strong>of</strong>fer <strong>of</strong> a<br />
call for this people in this strange unknown land. My soul was made willing to<br />
accept, and also strengthened to pass within a few weeks the two examinations,<br />
and admitted. How has the Lord borne with me, hardened and unthankful me.<br />
Though not speedy, yet my passage was safe through water and fire, and when<br />
landed at New York, I was helped to preach twice in much weakness. Hence this<br />
congregation received me with great joy and tender affection, which encouraged<br />
my troubled soul and made me to study and to labor more abundantly. Blessed be<br />
God, who kept me back from presumptuous sins, and oh, may the imperfections<br />
and iniquities <strong>of</strong> my ministry be graciously pardoned, and the Lord forgive my<br />
carelessness, and all the innumerable sins <strong>of</strong> my ministerial youth and infancy.<br />
The Lord, I humbly trust, has pitied me, and given me His grace to know what<br />
belongs to my own salvation, and thereby I am taught also to be solicitous for my<br />
flock, but I lament my coldness and backslidings at this day, and oh, may I renew<br />
covenant with my God. Blessed Jesus, I am Thine. Thou hast called me from<br />
Heaven to Thy glorious self! I love Thee, Lord, though not as I ought yet I love<br />
Thee, oh my Lord and Savior, in sincerity, which is Thy own gift and work. I<br />
desire to be more and more like unto Thy Holy, humble, meek Image, in temper<br />
and practice, and also to enjoy Thy presence, strength and Communion. Lord! I<br />
have forsaken Thee, but I desire to return from all creature cisterns unto Thee. 266<br />
Oh, pity and receive and restore a poor wandering prodigal, and may I again live<br />
before and near unto Thee, with confident cheerfulness in Thy distinguishing<br />
grace, and restore also my bodily health and spirits in and for the service <strong>of</strong> Thy<br />
Sanctuary. Oh, may I live to praise Thy name. Direct and dispose <strong>of</strong> my person<br />
and ministry according to Thy sovereign goodwill and pleasure, but make me<br />
more and more humble, sincere, zealous, and prosperous in Thy service, and<br />
restore health and strength with care and rest in my painful flesh. (This, however,<br />
Lord, not as I but as Thou wilst.) Oh, increase my patience, and may it have a<br />
perfect work. Father! Pity my wife and children. Oh, spare us together, and dwell<br />
with each <strong>of</strong> us at home and abroad in mercy. May my son be Thy servant, and<br />
prosper his studies. Prepare us further for Thy day and work and keep us near to<br />
Thy blessed self. May all Thy people here and elsewhere rejoice in Thy<br />
redeeming love, and the congregation be supplied with more service and<br />
catechize. I desire to pray for some assistance and help. May the Lord arise and<br />
favor our plan for Church and schools, or hear and provide better things for me,<br />
and the glory shall be His, through our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. Amen.<br />
29. This morning Mr. Ph. v Rensselaer 267 informed me <strong>of</strong> one Tiffany 268 <strong>of</strong><br />
Dartmouth College, who <strong>of</strong>fers his service for a school. I have examined his<br />
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Jeremiah 2:13: “For my people have committed two evils: they have forsaken me, the fountain <strong>of</strong><br />
living water, and dug out cisterns for themselves, cracked cisterns that can hold no water.” [The cistern<br />
image emphasizes that idols are manufactured by human hands and that they ultimately fail.]<br />
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Philip Van Rensselaer (1747-1798), married to Maria Sanders, who built Cherry Hill, in 1787.<br />
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