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1784<br />
January ’84<br />
2. Thanks to our God, that we are still the living monuments <strong>of</strong> His forbearing<br />
mercy. I desire to be humbled under my present affliction. Lord, pardon and pity<br />
me and my family and remember mercy. O, may we experience Thy loving<br />
kindness and restoring grace. I have been very painfully afflicted with sintering<br />
and swellings in my face and hindered to perform the duties <strong>of</strong> the New Year’s<br />
Day. I am sorry but desire to submit with fear and trembling. Forgive the<br />
inequities <strong>of</strong> my Holy Things and return with Thy former mercies. Restore me to<br />
the service <strong>of</strong> Thy Sanctuary and let me live to declare Thy works. Blessed be the<br />
Lord for the rest and sleep <strong>of</strong> the night past. Oh, may that day be a good day to<br />
my soul and body, and o, may the Lord change my sorrow into songs <strong>of</strong> praise and<br />
I live to see and enjoy the prosperity both <strong>of</strong> Church and state, my family and<br />
congregation. But Father, Thy will be done on Earth as it is in Heaven. Do not<br />
leave me but support and strengthen, comfort me and all those that are sick and<br />
weak and prepare us for all Thou art preparing for us. Blessed Jesus, Be Thou<br />
graciously near unto me and my merciful and compassionate High Priest to obtain<br />
grace and mercy in this time <strong>of</strong> need. Let Thy name be known and spread<br />
throughout the world and this year be crowned with Thy goodness, and o, may the<br />
spirit <strong>of</strong> Holiness rest upon all His servants and people, also in this land <strong>of</strong> the<br />
North, and His rest be glorious. Amen.<br />
3. The Lord is unchangeably faithful, and kind to poor, unworthy me. The pain<br />
and swellings are both abating and I am in hope through grace <strong>of</strong> a speedy<br />
recovery. Fain would I <strong>of</strong>ficiate tomorrow; but I feel too weak and too much<br />
indisposed. May the Lord <strong>of</strong> infinite mercy pardon my former indolence, and<br />
perfect His strength in my weakness. I dare not presume to tempt the Lord. I am<br />
afraid <strong>of</strong> striving with Him and desire to be still. Though it is a comfort that I am<br />
weakened in His service, yet the Lord call me now to suffer His will. Oh, may my<br />
soul and body be supported and comforted, and I wait on my faithful Creator. The<br />
Lord bless and restore His ordinances and servants. Visit us with healing mercies<br />
and peace and joy in believing, through Jesus Christ our Lord. Amen.<br />
13. I have sent a letter to Dr. Livingston, with Colonel A. Cuijler. 115<br />
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5. This morning I took another dose <strong>of</strong> salts (the first I took last Wednesday), and<br />
may the Lord <strong>of</strong> His mercy bless this medicine to remove the feverish cold. I am<br />
waiting for a blessing to restore my health and strength, and longing to prosecute<br />
my studies and labors in the gospel <strong>of</strong> Christ. Oh, may the Father <strong>of</strong> mercies<br />
pardon and pity me, and increase my trust and patience and my gratitude for<br />
sparing goodness. My times are in His hand. Oh, may I redeem precious time to<br />
be more active and fervent in His service. May the Lord hear our poor<br />
supplications, and grant an answer in peace. O, Thou most merciful Father, I<br />
115 Colonel Abraham Cuijler, who led the First Regiment <strong>of</strong> Albany in the Battle <strong>of</strong> Klock’s Field in<br />
the Mohawk River Valley in 1780.<br />
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