Brianna Wiest - The Mountain Is You_ Transforming Self-Sabotage Into Self-Mastery (2020)

THE MOUNTAIN IS YOU
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You can fight with everything you have. You can hold on
for as long as you can. You can force yourself into mental
gymnastics to pick apart signs. You can have your friends
read into texts and emails. You can decide that you know
what’s best for you and right for you. Mostly, you can wait.
You can wait forever.
What isn’t right for you will never remain in your life.
There is no job, person, or city that you can force to be
right for you if it is not, though you can pretend for a
while. You can play games with yourself, you can justify
and make ultimatums. You can say you’ll try just a little
longer, and you can make excuses for why things aren’t
working out right now.
The truth is that what is right for you will come to you
and stay with you and won’t stray from you for long. The
truth is that when something is right for you, it brings you
clarity, and when something is wrong for you, it brings
you confusion.
You get stuck when you try to make something that’s
wrong for you right. When you try to force it into a place
in your life in which it doesn’t belong. You get split; you
breed this internal conflict which you cannot resolve. The
more it intensifies, the more you mistake it for passion.
How could you ever feel so strongly about something that
isn’t right?