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THE AVATAR IN PANAMA - Theses - Flinders University

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3.3 Reinventing the Double The Avatar in Panamasecond. The juxtaposition of positive versus negative and the childhoodversus adult experience highlights the extreme polarisation of heremotions and personality. One aspect of zoo visit is also mirrored in thesexual assault, “en tu sonrisa la de los monos tras los barrotes, elplacer que te daba contra mi voluntad, aunque esta vez no erasolamente espectadora” (97) which serves to connect the story’s halvesin a frequently used technique by Jaramillo Levi. The latter experiences-“las desagradables”- sully all the rest but recur nonetheless: “siempreestán llegando como oleadas crueles que borran en un instante lo quedeseo retener e instalan con saña lo que quisiera olvidar” (96). Thisintroduces the near drowning experience provoked by an assault: “Temordí el brazo y arrancándome de tu lado me metí al agua corriendo.Estaba tibia, invitaba con insólito encanto a que penetrara en sumisterio y me aunara a él”, so much so that, “sentía que era el mar elque nadaba apresuradamente hacia mí” (96). After her subsequentrape and murder of the rapist, the section stops and changes direction:“Inmersa en el tedio de estas mañanas sin fin en que la claridad mehiere la vista, aprieto los ojos y la oscuridad se me llena de manchasluminosas”. 31 She articulates her wish: “Ojalá me penetrara un poco deesta luz y pudiera adquirir el don de la transparencia” (97). Hercharacter becomes physically and psychically split as she becomesincorporated into the last rays of the setting sun: “Miro por la ventana yme salgo fuera del cuerpo, desplazándome indefinidamente” (97).The protagonist’s persona merges with the dusk and then night:“Ya me he integrado al crepúsculo y ahora me convierto en nocheapacible que penetra por la ventana desde donde absorta, me dejoenvolver por la tenue oscuridad de mí misma” (97). Like the humanaxolotl,she is conscious of her transformation and her humanperspective remains as it does in “Paseo del lago”. She believes sheescapes her memories through physical transmutation. Images of lightand darkness are made more significant as the metamorphosis of thefemale subject is into the dark of night.With the exception of these previous conversions into aspectsof nature, the majority of Jaramillo Levi's mutating charactersmetamorphose into tangible objects. The protagonist of “Paseo al lago”,climaxes in physical death, disappearance, and corporealtransformation. It details the story of an unhappy couple who are invited31This image resonates with Maupassant’s homage to night “La nuit”: “J’aime la nuitavec passion”, “Il y faisait si clair que cela m’attrista et je ressortis le Coeur un peuassombri par ce choc de lumière brutale”. Maupassant, “La nuit”, Guy de Maupassant:Contes et Nouvelles (Paris: Albin Michel, 1964) 1138-1143. “Night”, “There was somuch light in there that I was depressed, and I came out again with my heartsaddened by the clash of brutal light” The World’s Best Mystery Stories (Melbourne:United P, 1935) 230235

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