Non-Normative Gender and Sexual Identities in Schools: - Schools Out

know now I’m on the whole gay scene I still don’t fit in anywhere I still see me as a
machine you the boy in the machine [//] …
AM: {do you feel like you need to fit, want to fit?
S: I feel like I want to feel some sort of completion to fit in, but I know I’m never gonna
fit it, so I just accept that I don’t fit in anywhere in order for me to just carry on…
AM: {yeah}
S: …um but I deal with life with a great deal of um diplomacy and things um and you
know I for a few years after being attacked I was quite vicious and I got called angriness
down and um started to try to become as human as possible but you know sometimes I
have drawbacks um in terms of trying to be human (slight laugh) um cos it its like you
become something that you know you try to be for so long to deal with your problems
that you just forget how to be human…
AM: {yeah}
S: …and when you try to look at the kid you used to be, you know the child that you
know never got to really grow up its kinda difficult to become human again you know
and um it still baffles me. I mean I understand humans in terms of the psychological
context um and how humans interact and how you expect them to be in certain situations
based upon their psychological or religious or various natures or belief structures they
have and um I just kind of try to remotely be human, but it still doesn’t work. I always get
knock backs and I expect nothing less from people so I just want to be me but try to have
some [//] just use my diplomacy and other humanesses that I have [//]
AM: And so at the moment you are doing a lot of work through here um…
S: {yeah}
AM: …is it, what did you say it was called the Exceeding Expectations project?...
S: {yeah}
AM: …which is going to…
S: {schools}
AM: …secondary schools [//] to [//]…
S: {yeah, yeah}
AM: {teaching about homophobia
S: Making people aware of various names of sexual identities and orientations…