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Non-Normative Gender and Sexual Identities in Schools: - Schools Out

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S<strong>and</strong>ra recognises a potential importance of com<strong>in</strong>g out at work, however she has<br />

decided not to. She felt that it would be ideal if she could be out <strong>and</strong> that by be<strong>in</strong>g out she<br />

might be a role model for LGBT kids, but, she says, ‘realistically I don’t ever see it<br />

happen<strong>in</strong>g’ (Transcript 5: 2). In talk<strong>in</strong>g to S<strong>and</strong>ra it was obvious that she recognised that<br />

good could come of her be<strong>in</strong>g out at work. However, she had weighed this up aga<strong>in</strong>st the<br />

possible negative outcomes <strong>and</strong> decided not to. Therefore whilst at work her girlfriend<br />

simply does not exist <strong>and</strong> her colleagues th<strong>in</strong>k she is s<strong>in</strong>gle. Whilst she has taken this<br />

measured decision, the effect this has upon her day to day life is immense. She describes<br />

how everyday ‘there’ll be someth<strong>in</strong>g that crops up where I have to hide it [her sexuality]<br />

or not disclose it’ (S<strong>and</strong>ra, Transcript 5: 5) <strong>and</strong> she says it is ‘one of my biggest issues <strong>in</strong><br />

life…it makes my life so much more complicated’ (Transcript 5: 5).<br />

The consequences for S<strong>and</strong>ra of feel<strong>in</strong>g she cannot disclose her lesbian identity at work<br />

are far reach<strong>in</strong>g <strong>and</strong> cause issues <strong>in</strong> her relationship, she says:<br />

…obviously your partner has got to be extremely underst<strong>and</strong><strong>in</strong>g that when you go to school they<br />

don’t exist effectively…<strong>and</strong> I know ***** th<strong>in</strong>ks sometime that she’s only <strong>in</strong> half my life, because<br />

the massive time that I spend at school they don’t know about [her], they don’t even know she<br />

exists…So it obviously causes problems <strong>in</strong> our relationship.<br />

(Transcript 5: 20)<br />

S<strong>and</strong>ra feels lucky to have an underst<strong>and</strong><strong>in</strong>g partner, however as regards long-term<br />

effects she has started to look for jobs outside of teach<strong>in</strong>g. In the past she has considered<br />

com<strong>in</strong>g out at work, but now she has decided that this is not an option; either she teaches<br />

<strong>and</strong> stays closeted or she f<strong>in</strong>d a job where she feels comfortable be<strong>in</strong>g out. S<strong>and</strong>ra does<br />

recognise that legally she cannot be forced out of teach<strong>in</strong>g, but expla<strong>in</strong>ed that if the pupils

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