Against the Wind: Eberhard Arnold and the Bruderhof - Plough
Against the Wind: Eberhard Arnold and the Bruderhof - Plough
Against the Wind: Eberhard Arnold and the Bruderhof - Plough
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<strong>Against</strong> <strong>the</strong> <strong>Wind</strong><br />
Jena <strong>and</strong> <strong>the</strong>n, following 1897, in Halle. Spiritual matters had fascinated her ever<br />
since a friend had introduced her to <strong>the</strong> family of Pastor Meinhof, a minister in<br />
Halle. As a teenager she had taken great interest in <strong>the</strong> history of <strong>the</strong> Moravian<br />
Brethren <strong>and</strong> <strong>the</strong>ir founder, Zinzendorf. She became absorbed in studying old <strong>and</strong><br />
new hymns <strong>and</strong> spiritual songs, <strong>and</strong> read with enthusiasm Thomas à Kempis’s<br />
Imitation of Christ. A parallel experience?<br />
At seventeen Emmy enrolled as a student nurse at <strong>the</strong> deaconesses’ institute<br />
in Halle. At nineteen she worked for a time as a nanny for Pastor Freybe <strong>and</strong> his<br />
family, friends in Stappenbeck near Salzwedel (about seventy miles sou<strong>the</strong>ast of<br />
Hamburg). She sent 1905 working as an intern at <strong>the</strong> deaconesses’ center, but<br />
gave it up by <strong>the</strong> end of <strong>the</strong> year because of poor health <strong>and</strong> emotional burnout.<br />
Pastor Freybe arranged for her to begin work in February of 1906 at <strong>the</strong> hospital<br />
of <strong>the</strong> Order of St. John in Salzwedel. Emmy worked gladly <strong>and</strong> dedicatedly as<br />
a nurse, but <strong>the</strong> suffering <strong>and</strong> death that so often confronted her – both in <strong>the</strong><br />
hospital <strong>and</strong>, from an early age, within her own family – made her think about <strong>the</strong><br />
sometimes mysterious will of God, about his compassion, <strong>and</strong> about <strong>the</strong> brevity<br />
of life. “What troubled me was that I felt something divided me from God,” she<br />
later said about this period. “I could not underst<strong>and</strong> how God, who is pure <strong>and</strong><br />
holy, had chosen such unholy people for his own, <strong>and</strong> I found no real answer to<br />
this question…”<br />
In this inner state <strong>and</strong> lured by a certain curiosity, Emmy von Holl<strong>and</strong>er made<br />
her way to Frau Baehr’s drawing room. Upon arrival in Halle for a month’s holiday<br />
with her parents, she had found her siblings full of enthusiasm over Ludwig von<br />
Gerdtell’s lectures. At afternoon coffee <strong>and</strong> o<strong>the</strong>r social occasions she had heard<br />
people openly discussing “whe<strong>the</strong>r <strong>the</strong> atonement of Christ still has power <strong>and</strong><br />
significance today.” The whole city seemed to brea<strong>the</strong> a different spirit. “How I<br />
longed that I, too, would be gripped by this spirit.”<br />
After <strong>the</strong> evening at Frau Baehr’s, Emmy did not see <strong>Eberhard</strong> for a while. He<br />
had gone to <strong>the</strong> Harz Mountains for a few days to become clear about his own<br />
feelings toward this young woman <strong>and</strong> about God’s will concerning her. Still<br />
deeply stirred by his talk, Emmy went several days later, on March 15, to visit<br />
Frau Baehr <strong>and</strong> find out from her <strong>the</strong> way to “peace in God <strong>and</strong> in Christ.” And she<br />
continued to attend <strong>the</strong> meetings.<br />
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