already here, that, in their composition, the constatation in mymentation of one small fact played a large part.N<strong>am</strong>ely, once during my reflections about the construction andfunctioning of the nervous system of man, I, by the way, rememberedand, thinking further, very definitely establ<strong>is</strong>hed the following:During the second period of my so to say "Great Illness" after theautomobile accident, that <strong>is</strong>, <strong>when</strong> my consciousness returned, whilemy body was still helpless, and <strong>when</strong> I was v<strong>is</strong>ited by different friends,<strong>then</strong>, no matter whether they talked to me or just remained about, forseveral hours after their departure I felt very badly.Their sincere sympathy in <strong>real</strong>ity gave birth in me every time tothoughts which may be expressed as follows: "c<strong>am</strong>e, sucked me outlike v<strong>am</strong>pires and went away."So, having decided on th<strong>is</strong> progr<strong>am</strong>, I, before beginning the <strong>real</strong>izationin practice of everything thought out by me for unfailing fulfillment,took an oath before my own essence.Th<strong>is</strong> was on the night of May 6th, 1928, new calendar. After the so to say "simultaneous pacification of numerous tapeworms," usual in my house on th<strong>is</strong> day, I again locked myself inmy room, and at th<strong>is</strong> time, having brought myself into a suitable state,took for th<strong>is</strong> case my first, solemn vow.It will be adv<strong>is</strong>able to mention here, by the way, that on th<strong>is</strong> n<strong>am</strong>e dayof mine, because of a certain action toward me on the part of one of thepeople near me, I decided to <strong>real</strong>ize the following:In the future, under the pretext of different worthy reasons, to removefrom my eyesight all those who by th<strong>is</strong> or that make my life toocomfortable.
During these seven years, I, in order to make possible the attainment ofmy <strong>then</strong> composed aims, infallibly carried out in the sphere of my inneras well as outer world a great number of peculiar "will-tasks" ofdifferent durations.I imposed them, changed, rechanged, or dropped them altogether,always in accord, on the one hand, with the already ar<strong>is</strong>en or expectedcircumstances of my ordinary life, and on the other hand with thear<strong>is</strong>ing in me, in connection with writing, of new ideas and new desiresfor the future.Today <strong>is</strong> the 2nd of April, 1935, new calendar; and the final time limitfor the intentional introducing by me into life of all the self-imposedaims and "will-tasks" for the possibility of attainment of the threementioned fund<strong>am</strong>ental aims will come on the 23rd of April of th<strong>is</strong>s<strong>am</strong>e year, old calendar.During th<strong>is</strong> period, because of my "scatterbrained trick," <strong>real</strong>ly unusualin the life of people, I accompl<strong>is</strong>hed more than sat<strong>is</strong>factorily thefollowing:First, "puffed" three small booklets into ten substantial volumes.Second, not <strong>only</strong> understood from all sides different deep-rootedminutiae of the common psyche of man, suspected by me and intriguingme all my life, but constated unexpectedly many such "delicacies,"which, had they been known to Mr. Beelzebub, would, I daresay, growthe horns mentioned by me in the next to the last chapter of the firstseries of my writings, even on h<strong>is</strong> hooves.Third, my health <strong>is</strong> now in such condition that I not <strong>only</strong>, as you maysee, live and write such an already ultra-fantastic book, but intend tooutlive all my past, present and future conscious enemies.
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