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George Orwell 1 9 8 4<br />
ever done when they were together and free. Also<br />
he knew that somewhere or other she was still<br />
alive and nee<strong>de</strong>d his help.<br />
He lay back on the bed and tried to compose<br />
himself. What had he done? How many years had<br />
he ad<strong>de</strong>d to his servitu<strong>de</strong> by that moment of<br />
weakness?<br />
In another moment he would hear the tramp of<br />
boots outsi<strong>de</strong>. They could not let such an outburst<br />
go unpunished. They would know now, if they had<br />
not known before, that he was breaking the<br />
agreement he had ma<strong>de</strong> with them. He obeyed the<br />
Party, but he still hated the Party. In the old days<br />
he had hid<strong>de</strong>n a heretical mind beneath an<br />
appearance of conformity. Now he had retreated a<br />
step further: in the mind he had surren<strong>de</strong>red, but<br />
he had hoped to keep the inner heart inviolate. He<br />
knew that he was in the wrong, but he preferred to<br />
be in the wrong. They would un<strong>de</strong>rstand that—<br />
O’Brien would un<strong>de</strong>rstand it. It was all confessed<br />
in that single foolish cry.<br />
He would have to start all over again. It might take<br />
years. He ran a hand over his face, trying to<br />
familiarize himself with the new shape. There<br />
were <strong>de</strong>ep furrows in the cheeks, the cheekbones<br />
felt sharp, the nose flattened. Besi<strong>de</strong>s, since last<br />
seeing himself in the glass he had been given a<br />
complete new set of teeth. It was not easy to<br />
preserve inscrutability when you did not know<br />
what your face looked like. In any case, mere<br />
control of the features was not enough. For the<br />
first time he perceived that if you want to keep a<br />
secret you must also hi<strong>de</strong> it from yourself. You<br />
must know all the while that it is there, but until it<br />
is nee<strong>de</strong>d you must never let it emerge into your<br />
consciousness in any shape that could be given a<br />
name. From now onwards he must not only think<br />
right; he must feel right, dream right. And all the<br />
while he must keep his hatred locked up insi<strong>de</strong><br />
him like a ball of matter which was part of himself<br />
and yet unconnected with the rest of him, a kind of<br />
cyst.<br />
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querido más que nunca. A<strong>de</strong>más, sabía que se<br />
encontraba viva y necesitaba <strong>de</strong> su ayuda.<br />
Se tumbó en la cama y trató <strong>de</strong> tranquilizarse.<br />
¿Qué había hecho? ¿Cuántos años <strong>de</strong><br />
servidumbre se había echado encima por<br />
aquel momento <strong>de</strong> <strong>de</strong>bilidad?<br />
Al cabo <strong>de</strong> unos instantes oiría los pasos <strong>de</strong><br />
las botas. Era imposible que <strong>de</strong>jaran sin<br />
castigar aquel estallido. Ahora sabrían, si no<br />
lo sabían ya antes, que él había roto el<br />
convenio tácito que tenía con ellos. Obe<strong>de</strong>cía<br />
al Partido, pero seguía odiándolo. Antes<br />
ocultaba un espíritu herético bajo una<br />
apariencia conformista. Ahora había<br />
retrocedido otro paso: en su espíritu se había<br />
rendido, pero con la esperanza <strong>de</strong> mantener<br />
inviolable lo esencial <strong>de</strong> su corazón, Winston<br />
sabía que estaba equivocado, pero prefería<br />
que su error hubiera salido a la superficie <strong>de</strong><br />
un modo tan evi<strong>de</strong>nte. O'Brien lo<br />
compren<strong>de</strong>ría. Aquellas estúpidas<br />
exclamaciones habían sido una excelente<br />
confesión.<br />
Tendría que empezar <strong>de</strong> nuevo. Aquello iba a<br />
durar años y años. Se pasó una mano por la<br />
cara procurando familiarizarse con su nueva<br />
forma. Tenía profundas arrugas en las<br />
mejillas, los pómulos angulosos y la nariz<br />
aplastada. A<strong>de</strong>más, <strong>de</strong>s<strong>de</strong> la última vez en que<br />
se vio en el espejo tenía una <strong>de</strong>ntadura postiza<br />
completa. No era fácil conservar la<br />
inescrutabilidad cuando no se sabía la cara<br />
que tenía uno. En todo caso no bastaba el<br />
control <strong>de</strong> las facciones. Por primera vez se<br />
dio cuenta <strong>de</strong> que la mejor manera <strong>de</strong> ocultar<br />
un secreto es ante todo ocultárselo a uno<br />
mismo. De entonces en a<strong>de</strong>lante no sólo <strong>de</strong>bía<br />
pensar rectamente, sino sentir y hasta soñar<br />
con rectitud, y todo el tiempo <strong>de</strong>bería encerrar<br />
su odio en su interior como una especie <strong>de</strong><br />
pelota que formaba parte <strong>de</strong> sí mismo y que<br />
sin embargo estuviera <strong>de</strong>sconectada <strong>de</strong>l resto<br />
<strong>de</strong> su persona; algo así como un quiste.