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what I saw in my mind’s eye were all of the horrible choices
I made and the faces of the people that I hurt in the process.
I thought about the times when I coulda, woulda, shoulda
taken action to stop this nightmare from happening, but it
was way too late.
Looking back, it was as if I was on a runaway train to
prison, and every choice I made accelerated my imminent arrival.
When I finally opened my eyes and looked around the
filthy cell, there was nowhere to run and nowhere to hide. I
felt like the most worthless piece of crap ever known to mankind.
My life had just hit rock bottom and I couldn’t see any
way up or out. That was by far the worst moment of the worst
day of my entire life.
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incarceration
What did it feel like when the gavel
dropped in court with the verdict
and how have you changed your life
behind bars since then?
David Monroe, inmate San Quentin
So often, we waste our time trying to get even with those who
have hurt us in some way, completely ignoring those who have
helped us in some way. I had made this mistake so many times
in my life that it became a normal function. I became so consumed
by the negative things in my life that I disregarded
anything positive. All I could think about was that I was poor,
hurt, and didn’t have a father. I forgot that I was smart, loved,
and still had a mother.
I didn’t realize this until I was sitting in juvenile court