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feelings of being lost in an uncertain world. Actually, I always<br />

valued that as much as the sex. The connection, the conversation.<br />

I often never felt much different from the girls I was<br />

meeting. There was something wonderful about being able to<br />

be completely naked, physically and mentally, with someone<br />

lying across the bed from you, with no fear of judgement, or<br />

recriminations.<br />

BUT, the last few encounters I've had have been awful, for<br />

reasons I won't go into here. The universe telling me to give<br />

it up, maybe. And I should. I should because I want to pursue<br />

a career in the medical field; I have aspirations to be a solid<br />

citizen — to grow out of being a idle denizen. I should because<br />

it hurts. It's probably the most spiritually damaging activity<br />

you could engage in, and I always wondered how these girls<br />

could be so tough to stand it. Prostitution demeans the punter<br />

and the working girl in almost equal measure. Like others<br />

have said, it's not real intimacy. There were many times when<br />

I would feel so dirty afterwards, many times when I knew<br />

the girl hated my guts, when I had knocked on their doors at<br />

three in the morning and got them out of bed, when I knew<br />

they missed their home country, their family.<br />

I know I can leave this habit behind me, and I do know<br />

that I can't do this forever — the finer, more noble things<br />

in life now require more of my attention. I watched Steve<br />

McQueen's film "Shame" the other day and started sobbing<br />

uncontrollably as everything Michael Fassbender's character<br />

went through was instantly recognizable and relatable to me.<br />

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I met Stephen when I was at University. A few years older<br />

than myself, he was a junior doctor at the local hospital

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