ROSETTA_MAGAZINE_201303
ROSETTA_MAGAZINE_201303
ROSETTA_MAGAZINE_201303
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126<br />
clue, took pictures of the events that took<br />
place with his mobile phone. Someone<br />
intervened and so the argument died down.<br />
As a result of this, now you have a layer<br />
of blue-cheap-environmentally unfriendly<br />
piece of plastic sheathing on top of you as if<br />
the concrete blocks weren’t enough. Please<br />
don’t be mad at me, I couldn’t intercept. At<br />
the time, I was trying to stop myself from<br />
bursting out in laughter by biting the insides<br />
of my cheeks as I knew what you would say<br />
if you could see these events taking place<br />
at that moment. You owe me big time for<br />
getting me in that state in that last moment.<br />
Then they gave me a shovel. A shovel with<br />
a warm handle… An unfamiliar male voice<br />
told me, “Throw the soil in, my son!”<br />
I wanted to turn around and hit him on the<br />
head with the shovel and shout, “Do not<br />
call me son, I don’t want anyone to call<br />
me their SON anymore!” Rage is such a<br />
strange bird; it picks one up with its beak<br />
and takes him to the skies.<br />
Were you an angry person, father? I have<br />
this vision in the forefront of my mind: The<br />
red light has just turned green. The driver<br />
of the car behind is impatient. He keeps<br />
honking. You take a deep breath. Your<br />
nostrils expand and shrink. You take off<br />
your thick bone framed coloured glasses<br />
and your Seiko watch and pass them to my<br />
mother. You pull the handbrake and get out<br />
of the car. I lean against the back window<br />
and prepare to watch what’s to happen. I<br />
cannot lie, I feel some sadistic pleasure.<br />
But nothing happens. The driver of the<br />
car behind gets scared by your advance<br />
towards him with warrior-like steps. He<br />
makes an abrupt manoeuvre and drives<br />
past you. I like that my father scares off the<br />
enemy forces, I feel proud to be the son of<br />
the heroic sheriff. When you return to the<br />
car my mother starts nagging, “I cannot<br />
believe it, what do you think you are you<br />
doing when your child’s sitting in the back<br />
seat?” You do not even turn around to look<br />
at me and I discover that being a sheriff<br />
means you need to hide your feelings. You<br />
snapped at my mother, “What have I done?<br />
He should see his father like that so he<br />
learns to protect his rights.” As I look at<br />
his hands clutching the wheel I remember<br />
what my deceased aunt used to say, “He<br />
has small hands but they are very powerful<br />
and if he gets angry, oh, oh, oh…” In that<br />
moment I think that we have some super<br />
powers, a power that only belongs to the<br />
two of us, a power that is passed down<br />
from father to son: We have hands that<br />
become super-duper-powerful and which<br />
grow when we get angry. We can strike<br />
down skyscrapers with one punch and<br />
crush bad men under our pinkie fingers.<br />
Father, my hands have not grown at all.<br />
They get dry, wrinkly and become covered<br />
with freckles but they do not grow.<br />
Now I understand that those rages and<br />
harangues of learning to protect my rights<br />
was all baloney. You were no different<br />
to me either. You know how I always got<br />
beaten up when I was a child and you<br />
scolded me because I got beaten up and<br />
no matter how many punches I took<br />
I never hit back? For years, I thought you<br />
were the cause of that. But, you never<br />
taught me how to deal with brute force<br />
and you wouldn’t have anyway because<br />
the only thing you knew was how to take<br />
your glasses and watch off, too. Your<br />
concern was being able to be the Red<br />
Indian who could embrace even a cactus<br />
with love amongst tens and hundreds<br />
of intruding cowboys in the Wild West.<br />
However, if you had read a bit more<br />
carefully you would have understood<br />
Captain Miki. No tribe gives the village<br />
story-teller a war axe!<br />
I think your generation had a problem as<br />
such; your lives were spent with the raged<br />
search of the power you couldn’t take over<br />
from your fathers. You see, if you hadn’t<br />
died we would have sat down and talked<br />
about all this. If it occurred that I could<br />
ask my question and it happened that I got<br />
your reply, I’d have said, “Fuck power, dad!<br />
Come and be a party to another feeling<br />
with me, be a party to the rage that dries<br />
my insides as long as I cannot find the<br />
equality that wasn’t inherited to us from<br />
your generation!” Yes, I am swearing<br />
because the cost of this cowardly rage left<br />
to me from you is far too heavy, father.<br />
Anyway, let’s stick to the subject. I am sure<br />
you are wondering about what happened<br />
after you, where the world is headed and<br />
the circumstances of this beautiful country.<br />
Isn’t this even slightly the hang-up of your<br />
generation? I know that if you don’t follow<br />
the evening news you feel incomplete.<br />
What can I say my dear father? The<br />
world is not a better place. Everything<br />
has become more insufferable. Let<br />
me summarise roughly… We are going<br />
through a great economic crisis, the US<br />
is committing homicide for the sake of<br />
freedom and democracy, the arms trade<br />
continues in the west and in the east, tens<br />
of people are dying every second in the<br />
hunger-exploitation-epidemic triangle of<br />
Africa. In Europe, anyone with a gun raids<br />
a school, the convicts of unsolved murders<br />
are still very much unidentifiable, illegal<br />
workers are rotting in illegal workplaces<br />
and shipyards are the graveyards of<br />
the uneducated workforce. Newspaper<br />
headings continue to aid noun pollution.<br />
You know how it is, the secret government<br />
is yellow and the trade unions are green.<br />
Children die in one corner of the world<br />
before they turn five and in another<br />
corner cosmetic surgeries are performed<br />
every five minutes. Genetic research has<br />
advanced to the point of being over the<br />
top. Pardon me? Did you say this much is<br />
enough? It’s not enough my dear father,<br />
there is much more that needs to be told<br />
as these are just snacks beside reality. In<br />
actual fact, what we know is limited by the<br />
sugar-coated pills that certain hegemonic<br />
powers, investment groups, governments<br />
(whatever you want to call them, those<br />
sons of bitches) want us to swallow.<br />
127<br />
The world is a rotten and shitty world<br />
and, like everyone else, I am a letter that<br />
is frequently repeated in this poem of<br />
stupidity. However, I do not want to talk<br />
about these further as it would dispirit you<br />
my dear father; I am sure you are probably<br />
plenty dispirited because you are dead.<br />
You might be more curious about me<br />
rather than these things. You are right;<br />
the fact that you are dead doesn’t change<br />
this identity information. I thought and<br />
pondered a lot after your death just as I did<br />
before. You see now there is a distinction:<br />
before your death and after your death.<br />
You have also managed this, haven’t you?<br />
My dear father, you have actually given me<br />
a milestone with your death, thank you so<br />
much! Oh how my tongue twists, please<br />
don’t think that I am making fun because I<br />
express gratitude.