Promethium muriaticum Entire Proving Journal

Promethium‐mur Journal 13
29/02:40 DREAMS 11 (Part 1) Very vivid dream where I was with a small group of people who had a yellow plastic flimsy tube,
maybe four feet in diameter, that they were putting into the ocean through a hole in the room we were in; they
were attaching it somehow to the ocean floor and letting people go down to the bottom to experience the ocean
floor; I wanted to try, so I jumped into the yellow tube and slid down, it was a cushy ride because the plastic
was like the plastic on a water bed, not hard plastic; gravity took me down, and it was a little scary because it
was a dark hole into the ocean, down and down, and the plastic wasn't hard so it felt like I wasn't so protected;
but I didn't think much of fears, I trusted; got to the bottom and couldn't see anything...thought there would've
been a room down there to look out at the ocean floor or something, but it was a great experience nonetheless
(not sure why); came back up to the top and wished I'd have had a camera and notebook with me to see what
the tube was like while going down and to write about my feelings while sliding down into the ocean, into the
abyss, not able to see where I was going and where I'd end up; it was exciting sliding down but kind of felt like
I was being swallowed up by the darkness, I tried to feel my way around even though I was sliding down fast;
later felt like I just had to try again; I had someone set up the yellow tube for me so I could go down, and
while I was sliding down, this time I wondered why no one got the bends when coming back up, or if the sides
of the tube were really strong enough to not collapse under the pressure of the water and depth, or what would
happen if there was a hole or a leak in the tube...but I went down anyway;
29/02:40 DREAMS 11 (Part 2) When I got to the bottom this time, I saw a leak and water coming in semi-slowly, but fast enough for
me to know I had to get out of there; I quickly ran backwards up the side of the tube and got out; seemed like I
got to the top very quickly considering that I was going all the way from the ocean floor to land; I was crying
and told the others we couldn't go down anymore because there was a leak, to which they said they could just
fix it...and showed a gesture like putting a piece of tape on the hole; I knew it was a bigger problem than that,
that the tube was probably filled with ocean water by now and I was lucky to have gotten out, and the tube
idea was dangerous so I wouldn't go down again; reflecting on my feelings during this dream, I found it odd
for me to simply brush away and forget any sliver of fear during the first trip down the tube; the feeling was
that the tube experience was like a theme park attraction, and I naively trusted without thinking about possible
problems and consequences; the second time I went down, I had a strong urge to go for some reason, though I
don't know what that reason was, and it was devastating when I came up because I knew that the experience
was over forever because of the hole and because of the possible consequences of being caught in there while
filling up (like drowning); I felt it was horrible and tragic for the experience to be gone forever, but I was so
thankful to have gotten the chance to go down there one last time (not sure why I was thankful...because it was
dark down there and I couldn't see anything through the plastic tube!)
35/00:00 DREAMS 11 I looked up and towards the foot of bed was a man. He was looking at me with intense eyes. He was looking
at my chest, he was hyper-ventilating. I had NO fear. He was looking at my shirt and breathing in and out.
Same intensity. It was like he wasn't there. He was like a crazy man. Like he was rapid or something like
that.
11/02:00 DREAMS 15 I was outside by a street curb with a few other people and one said, "Be careful there is a snake by your feet."
I moved my feet confidently away from the snake and it was over. Even though it seemed I should have been
afraid in the dream it was as if I knew I was protected and just matter of factly moved away from the snake.
13/11:13 DREAMS 15 About a snake by my feet, no anxiety about it, just matter of fact, non-reaction to it. I just moved away and felt
safe. Just as though the snake was a piece of paper.
22/00:00 DREAMS 15 Someone had driven up to our place in the night and was out walking around. I was angry that they thought
they could just do that and went out to see what they were doing. I noted the license plate # and then
approached them. They laughed and said they were stealing ammunition from my husband's stash and that it
was easy picking and they had been doing it for years without being caught. I figured well if he didn't bother to
take care of his stuff or account for it it wasn't my problem and they left.
00/00:00 DREAMS 16 The night before I took the substance I had a weird dream. All of a sudden I had signed up for some classes,
and I realized I missed them. I missed two days of classes and I was trying to figure out where they were. It
felt like I HAD to find them, like "where do I need to go? where are they?" Felt a little anxious but, in the
dream, I made myself calm.