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Promethium‐mur Journal 67
22/00:00 MIND 10 Later this day....I found myself on the same exact intersection that I had been on moments after taking my
first dose of the Proving remedy. What I remembered in that moment was how very peaceful I had felt and I
began to wonder how I had moved from that state and did I still experience that sense of moving at a far
slower pace? There have been numerous incidents involving a certain time warp for lack of a better
expression. This is difficult to explain. The latest occurrence of this 'awareness' involved me thinking &
feeling as though I had seen a particular client weeks ago or longer. She told me this morning when she called
that it had only been one week. A quick look at my calendar confirmed that. There are too many other
examples to relay in this journal, but if I can be more specific about this time-warp symptom, it involves a type
of forgetfulness....such as not realizing what day it is...slowly reading that things that happened just yesterday
feel as though it was many days ago...time moving very quickly when I anticipate things taking way longer
than they actually do and vice versa. I'd like to expand on this...and may be able to provide a more succinct but
comprehensive report in a day or so. For now....it feels as though I am just catching up and trying to get some
sense of order into my life so that I can remain responsible to people.
24/00:00 MIND 10 I am considering that the interactions I've had this morning…even those on I-chat with my son and some
dealings with my other son's former girlfriends (yes, 2 in one morning!!!) have taken a lot of energy from my
vital force. I was proud of myself at one point earlier for speaking the truth in love while providing a boundary
at the same time for myself. This is progress and something to feel good about as far as personal growth.
25/00:00 MIND 10 Again, I should have reported this symptom earlier…around the 21st day of the Proving or even earlier, but I
thought it had more to do with the fact that the remedy had worn off and/or I was losing sleep due to
circumstances. I noticed that my thoughts were of a very distressing nature....as in, "oh my gosh...what if my
grandson slips into the tub and breaks something and then my daughter-in-law comes home early and my son
will fly back later and the plane will crash..." I would notice these sudden fearful thoughts mostly when I
would lay down to sleep. I recall having bad hypothetical-situation thoughts in years past when I would be
getting my period. At that time, I was aware of this mental symptom, but just attributed it to shifting hormones
or excess water around my brain. Earlier in the Proving, I had experienced such an uplifting, continual sense
of peace, calm and tranquility, especially with respects to my thoughts. Most of the time, if something that was
typically unsettling would occur, my response felt like I was already floating on a river of retirement (from
anxiety or stress) so to speak with having a solid continuum of peace with gratitude as the one over-riding
emotion. As I look back now to the beginning of the Proving, it stands to reason that this energy would have a
reverse polarity or flip side as it were. As of this reporting....Day 26 of the Proving, I feel that the worst is over
with the negative aspects of the mental symptoms and even the physical symptoms have seemed to wane quite
a bit. A few tummy aches here and there but nothing to really make a note of as they seem to be so few, far
between and out from the initial dose(s) of the Proving remedy.
25/00:00 MIND 10 Sunday mornings I often watch a program called 'Sunday Morning' but today I opted to watch a program on
DayStar TV. The pastor was talking about 'Heaven'. How very serendipitous as this theme has repeatedly
come up during this Proving for me. What are the chances of a random act finding yet another reminder of a
subject so vitally important, yet so mysteriously misunderstood & undiscussed. How is it that considering the
weight of the question, 'where are we all going?'......so many for so long...eons it seems, have been so reticent
on this matter.
26/00:00 MIND 10 Late Saturday afternoon I started watching a movie on the CW channel while waiting for hubby to get home
from work. 'CW', I learned, does not stand for Christian Women! Being it was on a 'regular' network station
(we don't have cable)…the really offensive material was already edited. This movie seemed fairly engaging
and mildly like a 'who done it', so when hubby came home half-way through...he suggested we watch it on
Amazon via Netflix and Roku Box so he could see it from the beginning. I ran out to do an errand & came
back just in time to see where I had left off. Oh My Gosh! What is that phenomenon where a person is
horrified but cannot look away? Maybe it was the time I had already 'invested' in watching or the need to know
how it would resolve...but what a yucky, evil movie. I wouldn't call 'Cold Creek Manor' a family film. The
thematic material was downright disturbing. The next day I sent a comment to the automated survey w/the
carrier and let them know that this film should not be viewed as there is enough evil in the world without
trying to pass this junk off as entertainment.