Promethium muriaticum Entire Proving Journal

Promethium‐mur Journal 66
20/18:30 MIND 10 Feeling better already. Got a call from my out-of-state daughter who had a mini-crisis (car repairs from a
flying board on the freeway in Nevada) which both my hubby & I agreed needed some financial intervention.
Being carless today, I hopped on my bike and headed to the bank to deposit into another bank for a transfer.
The wind was huge today...and it felt like one of my contacts was going to blow right off! The situation with
my being able to help fueled my momentum today and shifted my focus in a way that seemed to pull me up out
of the muck & mire I felt earlier today. While biking home this afternoon, I saw a large eagle between Goose
Lake & White Bear Lake. It was awesome.....it seemed t o be riding the waves of the wind effortlessly but it
also looked as if this bird was being carried along with the wind. Eagles often remind me of that verse in
Isaiah that speaks of renewed strength & hope while one looks to Providence. "Those who wait upon the Lord
will renew their strength. They will mount up with wings like eagles, they will run and not be weary. They will
walk and not faint."
21/00:00 MIND 10 Today while caring for my grandson at my daughter-in-law's house, I was mildly aware that the continual ease
& tranquility I had previously enjoyed seemed to be dissipating. My grandson is 15 months old & due to his
living out of state, this is the first opportunity I've had to spend more than just a few hours with him. I was
caring for him 24/7 from Wednesday @ 6:30am to Thursday morning. It was a joy...and yet I felt like I had to
be continually on alert as it were with what time he ate {his daycare requires this as part of their on-going
care}, whether or not he might fall or become distraught in missing his mom & dada. Looking back, the level
of responsibility that is required of my usual life was suddenly amped up a huge notch. But all in all, my peace
& sense of humor remained in place....but there was a certain amount of subliminal stress involved. Case in
point - my daughter-in-law's father dropped off our grandson at 7:00am on Wednesday. I was already there as
I had spent the night before to insure that I would not be late and to accommodate my daughter-in-law's
parents who have been caring for this sweet, little man for several months now as my daughter-in-law gets
readjusted to moving back here from California with her young son. In spite of my good intentions to be up
and running and ready to watch my grandson all day, I had inadvertently mixed up the am/pm settings on my
alarm clock. And it's ironic, as one of my biggest concerns about the collective plan was that I would
oversleep and not be ready for the day and it's demands. Funny how the things we fear do come upon us...and
that is what happened.
21/00:00 MIND 10 I answered the door just seconds after waking up and met my little guy & his other grandpa with bed head and
jammies and gar-gar breath. Oh Well!!! Not a traumatically embarrassing moment by any stretch...but an
exercise in putting things in perspective for sure. Fear of being criticized & judged is universal & part of my
past construct was to be sensitive to that. Thankfully I have moved beyond that constraining dynamic and good
to know that the other grandparent is a mellow fellow and a kind soul...who likely is not holding me in
reproach, in spite of the fact that our kids are having marital problems, largely due to my son's interest in a
third party. I share this only to provide some context for my qualms about at least appearing to be responsible
and trustworthy. I know that I am....but that element of feeling judged does make it 's way into my mind in
certain situations. I survived and later even laughed out loud when I got home after the same grandpa picked
up our grandson and I realized that I had what looked like poop all over the side of my pants. So glad God has
a sense of humor that He blesses me with when I need that!
22/00:00 MIND 10 After my grandson was picked up and I had a moment to just sit and enjoy breakfast & some nice hot coffee
made from fresh ground beans, I read in that day's devotional 'Come to Me and Rest. Give your mind a break
from it's habitual judging. You form judgments about this situation, that situation, this person, that person,
yourself.....as if judging were your main function in life....When you become preoccupied with passing
judgment, you usurp My role. Relate to Me as creature to Creator, sheep to Shepherd, subject to King, clay to
Potter....rather than evaluating My ways with you, accept then thankfully....Worship Me as King of Kings
while walking hand in hand with Me down the path of Life.' Somewhere in this daily devotional I had seen in
print the word 'Potentate' and I marveled at what an interesting and fitting word this is...but how seldom we
hear this expression in our culture. These words from today and that one word Potentate had generated a
continuum of thoughts about the Almighty & His creation. I was excited to be about my day after my grandson
left & felt energized and invigorated while cleaning the house & doing laundry before my daughter-in-law's
return from CA. It felt so very good to help her in this way...not only to clean up for her, as I know she is in a
highly- transitional phase of her life w/much stress around that, but also to have opportunity to spend nurturing
time with my grandson. He's a joy!