Promethium muriaticum Entire Proving Journal

Promethium‐mur Journal 61
09/23:30 MIND 10 Earlier this evening I began to be aware that the slower inner pace I have been experiencing has begun to everso-slowly
give way to a normal sense of timing when it comes to task-orientated commitments. For instance,
we had offered to help my daughter-in-law clean up the house she is moving into as of today. She knew we
were coming this evening, after some errands, but those errands were taking too long for me. I had been aware
of the new 'la-dee-dah' mindset early on in the proving and it seemed to me that I was getting a bit antsy or
having a sense of urgency (not anxiety) to get moving. Once we were there however, I was again just happy &
contented to be able to help them and just to be there. Earlier.... Hubby & I needed to stop to eat prior to
heading over to Mendota Heights & my supper was less than healthy. I had skipped lunch this day....had only
a caramel which breaks all my health rules and breakfast was less than nutritious. We had eaten at the Oasis in
Stillwater & I had forgotten about their bad coffee & artificial syrup. Dinner consisted of fish (fried) with
onion rings and a less than savory salad with so-called Ranch dressing which to me tasted like low-calorie and
I dislike this. I mention this after the fact as I was not guilting over this departure from healthy eating but did
notice the next morning I had no ill effects whatsoever......this is very unusual for me.
10/11:00 MIND 10 I don't know how to briefly relay the phenomenon that was my morning on Saturday. I woke up feeling so
good physically…and mentally & emotionally as well. We received a call for help and were happy to be able
to get out and assist my son & daughter-in-law again with some cleaning & painting. My husband's swing shift
syndrome was in high gear and I was finding it difficult to motor him and myself out of the house. We
received a call from an old girl-friend of our youngest son. She was in jail. Both hubby & I are mercy people
from the get go...but we knew we were needing to go in one direction together and to leave this situation alone
with someone we had already talked to about this young lady's release...or NOT! Why was it so difficult to just
leave the house and get going? And of course when we finally did leave and stopped at McDonalds...everyone
and their mother was waiting in line. I was very aware that I was feeling something shift inside me but I was
not at all in what we would call a Nux State. I was noticing how different I felt as compared to the beginning
of the Proving. Once we got to our destination, I was a contented & happy camper again. There is just no word
but inexplicable to describe that feeling of being detained when I wanted to just move through time.
10/23:30 MIND 10 This is too late to be running around on the West Bank but my son wanted to visit a friend who has Cystic
Fibrosis. Our son is in Recovery and I almost always welcome the opportunity to spend time with him even if
it's in the car for a short jaunt. After dropping my son off at the U of M hospital (he had a ride home) I left the
area and soon realized I had no idea where the heck I was. It is strange, because I used to be a driver for US
West and I am quite familiar with the East Bank. I was aware that I was tired...and it was dark....and perhaps I
should have just said no to my son's request. These thoughts around boundaries and decisions dealing with
time were coming up on my radar. I really wished I'd stayed home with my hubby and gone to bed early. In
trying to find a familiar street, I noticed 4th St and headed down that road until I realized & remembered that
it goes one way...and the wrong way from the direction I needed to be. It was a surreal experience. Not at all
nightmarish considering our gas tank was on empty and it was a Holiday weekend night....but there was an
element of everything looking so strange. Even after finding my way to familiar terrain...it all looked so very
different. I just wanted to get home and could not get there fast enough. I felt almost homesick. Like Dorothy
said...."There's no place like home!"
11/11:10 MIND 10 During worship this morning I found myself feeling as though I could not enter in as usual. I wondered about
it and knew that I was distracted, thinking about several family members & their issues. And no one is even in
peril or close to anything resembling an emergency. This is NOT my typical mode. I love worship time at our
church and this is just odd for me to be so unfocused and to have my heart as it were so mis-directed toward
other impertinent matters.
11/21:45 MIND 10 I really cannot think of any symptoms that were noteworthy today. I'm still enjoying a tranquil & grateful state
of mind even though I am getting tired during the day…almost every day since early on in the Proving. I'd
have to go back and look, but it seems to me there were two days in a row where it had seemed like I flew
easily through the day...but now I am aware that I am tiring easily almost every morning and again in the
afternoon. Yesterday evening was memorable in that we went to a surprise wedding reception for my niece. It
was out in the country and on the way home, the yellow moon was so beautiful against the dark, navy blue sky.
It was such a fine way to top a really fun & enjoyable night. I need to cap this for now as I am tired again &
just want to read my book, 'Heaven.'