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Promethium‐mur Journal 60 06/24:00 MIND 10 In checking my e-mails, I see a link from my hubby to a book titled, 'The God Who Answers By Fire,' by June Volk. Evidently my husband had met her years ago and was just sharing another good read. I'd be very interested to read this book. As soon as Study group meets to discuss our reading about Liver Diseases, I'll have more time to return to reading for sheer pleasure. I'd like to revisit the book 'Clear Your Clutter w/Feng Shui' as it contains a few chapters on the body's need to detoxify and rebuild as well as how/why a person would collect clutter in their life. From what I had previously read in this book, one of the main reasons people gather unnecessary things is to feel as though they or someone else may need an item in the future. The message here is that we need to trust that Providence will provide in the future and all along. I know He's already there in the future and with me in the present moment....so I need to look at why my house is still too congested. Maybe it's more about other people's crap than my own. No, actually, I have my own messes to dispose of. I just need to let go and let God on multiple levels in my life....including my actual abode. This is one area where I have seen some significant changes and renewal as of late and it's a real reason to rejoice! 07/24:00 MIND 10 I had a very pleasant evening after hubby helped me at work. We listened to music at Tally's & I was approached by a gentleman who recognized me from high-school. I had no recollection of who he was, but it was good to introduce him to my husband, as they are both musicians. This man dated one of my friends in high school and when I asked him how she was he said she had drowned in a swimming pool in California 5 years ago. This news was so unexpected. I believe if we had kept in touch, I would have felt terrible. As it was, I just had to sit there and take a pause. I found myself wondering how any adult can drown in a swimming pool. By the time I got home it was late, but a friend called and mentioned to me that with 3 male types here in my house, I must be over-worked keeping everyone fed. I was very aware that this was not my point of reference at all. I am very grateful that I can provide food for my loved ones. Millions are starving around the globe and myself and my family are all okay in that respect. I went to bed feeling as though I had neglected to log symptoms, but grateful that my life's boundaries have fallen in pleasant places. 08/13:30 MIND 10 After doing what felt like some concerted catch up with logging symptoms, I am experiencing a lot of trouble with the machine I am using. I really need to put this file onto a better computer. This one seems to be the laptop from hell. Others have complained about it here at home so I don't think I'm being overly irritable, except to say that I've not eaten since this morning but I'm not really hungry. Maybe my blood sugar is low (this has been problematic in my distant past). I sincerely hope my Supervisor does not consider me a crab-ass, but it feels very good to be expressive in the moment with my emotions. It has been my norm for most of my life to be constrained with anger & irritability. Staphysagria was not my first remedy...but was a Constitutional for some time early on in my journey. Maybe today's hissy fit with the computer was a rapid re-visit of some past state. For the most part....I am still experiencing a positive & grateful, joyful attitude. 08/23:00 MIND 10 It really blesses me that I am still peaceful, happy & content, even with people in my house at this late hour. I have a sink full of dishes, and I'm sitting here still typing w/an achy back (middle thoracic area), a stiff, sore neck (left side) and sneezing away still....but I feel so very tranquil and content to have my grandson sleeping upstairs, my prodigal son here w/his awesome lady friend and my hubby home here and happy as well. I am still experiencing moments when I realize that formerly stressful things are turning into or become very easy and light. I had my mother over for dinner earlier and it was so very pleasant. Not that it has been unpleasant in the past....but there is a very noticeable absence of any stress, strain or provocation. Things just seem to roll off my back in a way that feels very good. There seems to be a sustainable, ongoing peaceful feeling in my soul. I'm looking forward to each day & am very content and happy with the people in my life. I am enjoying & appreciating this Proving.
Promethium‐mur Journal 61 09/23:30 MIND 10 Earlier this evening I began to be aware that the slower inner pace I have been experiencing has begun to everso-slowly give way to a normal sense of timing when it comes to task-orientated commitments. For instance, we had offered to help my daughter-in-law clean up the house she is moving into as of today. She knew we were coming this evening, after some errands, but those errands were taking too long for me. I had been aware of the new 'la-dee-dah' mindset early on in the proving and it seemed to me that I was getting a bit antsy or having a sense of urgency (not anxiety) to get moving. Once we were there however, I was again just happy & contented to be able to help them and just to be there. Earlier.... Hubby & I needed to stop to eat prior to heading over to Mendota Heights & my supper was less than healthy. I had skipped lunch this day....had only a caramel which breaks all my health rules and breakfast was less than nutritious. We had eaten at the Oasis in Stillwater & I had forgotten about their bad coffee & artificial syrup. Dinner consisted of fish (fried) with onion rings and a less than savory salad with so-called Ranch dressing which to me tasted like low-calorie and I dislike this. I mention this after the fact as I was not guilting over this departure from healthy eating but did notice the next morning I had no ill effects whatsoever......this is very unusual for me. 10/11:00 MIND 10 I don't know how to briefly relay the phenomenon that was my morning on Saturday. I woke up feeling so good physically…and mentally & emotionally as well. We received a call for help and were happy to be able to get out and assist my son & daughter-in-law again with some cleaning & painting. My husband's swing shift syndrome was in high gear and I was finding it difficult to motor him and myself out of the house. We received a call from an old girl-friend of our youngest son. She was in jail. Both hubby & I are mercy people from the get go...but we knew we were needing to go in one direction together and to leave this situation alone with someone we had already talked to about this young lady's release...or NOT! Why was it so difficult to just leave the house and get going? And of course when we finally did leave and stopped at McDonalds...everyone and their mother was waiting in line. I was very aware that I was feeling something shift inside me but I was not at all in what we would call a Nux State. I was noticing how different I felt as compared to the beginning of the Proving. Once we got to our destination, I was a contented & happy camper again. There is just no word but inexplicable to describe that feeling of being detained when I wanted to just move through time. 10/23:30 MIND 10 This is too late to be running around on the West Bank but my son wanted to visit a friend who has Cystic Fibrosis. Our son is in Recovery and I almost always welcome the opportunity to spend time with him even if it's in the car for a short jaunt. After dropping my son off at the U of M hospital (he had a ride home) I left the area and soon realized I had no idea where the heck I was. It is strange, because I used to be a driver for US West and I am quite familiar with the East Bank. I was aware that I was tired...and it was dark....and perhaps I should have just said no to my son's request. These thoughts around boundaries and decisions dealing with time were coming up on my radar. I really wished I'd stayed home with my hubby and gone to bed early. In trying to find a familiar street, I noticed 4th St and headed down that road until I realized & remembered that it goes one way...and the wrong way from the direction I needed to be. It was a surreal experience. Not at all nightmarish considering our gas tank was on empty and it was a Holiday weekend night....but there was an element of everything looking so strange. Even after finding my way to familiar terrain...it all looked so very different. I just wanted to get home and could not get there fast enough. I felt almost homesick. Like Dorothy said...."There's no place like home!" 11/11:10 MIND 10 During worship this morning I found myself feeling as though I could not enter in as usual. I wondered about it and knew that I was distracted, thinking about several family members & their issues. And no one is even in peril or close to anything resembling an emergency. This is NOT my typical mode. I love worship time at our church and this is just odd for me to be so unfocused and to have my heart as it were so mis-directed toward other impertinent matters. 11/21:45 MIND 10 I really cannot think of any symptoms that were noteworthy today. I'm still enjoying a tranquil & grateful state of mind even though I am getting tired during the day…almost every day since early on in the Proving. I'd have to go back and look, but it seems to me there were two days in a row where it had seemed like I flew easily through the day...but now I am aware that I am tiring easily almost every morning and again in the afternoon. Yesterday evening was memorable in that we went to a surprise wedding reception for my niece. It was out in the country and on the way home, the yellow moon was so beautiful against the dark, navy blue sky. It was such a fine way to top a really fun & enjoyable night. I need to cap this for now as I am tired again & just want to read my book, 'Heaven.'
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