Promethium muriaticum Entire Proving Journal

Promethium‐mur Journal 77
05/12:38 MIND 16 Hard to get air in and out. Like you have to struggle to get it. You have to pay attention to get it. It's not like
something I can't do it, but have to work harder than regularly. It's not impossible. Impossible = not going to
happen. Like looking for metal in mine you have to dig hard, you have to work. I know I can do it. It's
doable. Impossible = not accessible. Like looking for something precious in the mine and don't find it.
05/12:39 MIND 16 I can not do anything about this. That stuck feeling. I can't change him. I'm stuck in this. I'm the one who
has to be flexible. To go with the flow. What other people are doing. Like you are in this box and you have
to accept it. You can't move your hands or anything, it's just what it is. You can't move hands or feet, you
have to stay straight. that is the way that is it. No tightness or anything. Just being in a box where you can't
move your hands. This is what it is. You have to accept what is. No pressure or anything, but you can't
change the situation. I was angry. I was intense. I want to change, and I know I can't. I'm fixed in this too.
I tried to take 10 minutes for myself and calm myself down. Right after remedy, felt everything is fine.
05/12:40 MIND 16 Everything is fine, if I cannot change it, everything the way it is fine. I'd like to change things the way I'd like
to be better, I knew I couldn't, made me angry. But after the remedy, it was fine. It wasn't that important any
more. No anger. I'm not feeling intense any more. No fight between the way it is and the way I wanted it to
be. There wasn't any fight.
05/12:41 MIND 16 Peace, you feel light. Like before taking first dose, so happy and light. This time it was peace. No weight.
Nothing to be worried about.
05/14:40 MIND 16 I was going to send my journal to my supervisor and I sent it to another person with the same first name!
05/14:50 MIND 16 I realized I didn't send my journal to my supervisor so I sent the e-mail but without any attachment!
05/15:00 MIND 16 I have a meeting at work but I feel foggy, I feel like I'm confused & my brain is not functioning well.
05/20:00 MIND 16 I was driving & I turned right onto the wrong side of the street, the cars were coming toward me!! It was on
CR-81 which is 0.5 mile from our house & I go there almost every day!!
06/9:15 MIND 16 In case taking I wrote some funny words & had some misspelling.
07/00:00 MIND 16 Confused, absentminded, today I made a couple of big mistakes while driving. I turned into traffic on the
wrong side of the road. On the streets near my house. These are familiar streets. This is very unusual.
07/00:00 MIND 16 I have been making mistakes with electronics, emailing without attachments, emailing the wrong person.
07/00:00 MIND 16 I feel like an idiot, but I am not embarrassed.
07/00:00 MIND 16 I asked my supervisor who is a very serious professor if she had seen a very important book. She came to my
office and there it was just above my desk. This is not what usually what happens. She said, "You need a
vacation." I was not embarrassed, that would be my normal response to this situation.
07/13:30 MIND 16 Very confused. Made a couple of mistakes in driving. Glad Police didn't catch me!!
07/16:04 MIND 16 It feels like, it reminds me when you look at a cardiogram, how it goes up and down when it is working. It is
just one.
07/16:06 MIND 16 The bar is the silver color of metal.
07/16:09 MIND 16 Instead of shortness of breath, now it's the shortening of the muscle. It is in a different way. This is going up
and down to increase the size or length of the muscle, of the smooth muscle.
07/16:15 MIND 16 I am under the ground, not easy to find, heavy, very heavy, you have to work hard to get me, to find me. It is
not impossible, but you have to work hard to find it. Something deep underground. Very heavy, it goes down
and down, it probably takes other things with it down, because of the heaviness.
07/16:16 MIND 16 It's deep. It's confusing. As you are going to get it, you get confused along the way. Confusing, disorienting,
it's unclear, foggy, it's not definite, it's like a fog. Like driving in fog, you can't see where you are going, you
are not clear. It's like when you go to get the substance.
07/16:20 MIND 16 It's silvery, grayish, a pale blue, going from blue to gray, it's not dark blue. It's like a steam, you can't not see it.
07/16:20 MIND 16 It's like a steam, but it's not moist. Just the steam, gray-blue, you can't see through it. It's not a hot temperature.
07/16:23 MIND 16 Something that you have to go get, to go through the fogginess, the steam to get there.
08/18:00 MIND 16 I woke up from the nap and took my daughter to soccer practice. I take her to practice twice a week every
week and today I took her to the wrong place! Tried to call her coach and let him know she will be late but
didn't find my cell phone. I thought I left it at home; after I dropped her off I found my cell phone in my
pocket!