Promethium muriaticum Entire Proving Journal

Promethium‐mur Journal 64
15/11:53 MIND 10 I had mentioned early on in the Proving that I was experiencing this resonance with time…and timing…or
lack thereof! I had heard on the way to work yesterday of a site called 'Shrink Your Work Week' .com. It may
seem very elementary and almost silly to say that framing a task by putting a time limit to it is fundamental to
expanding one's time resource. But this concept...of limiting time for each 'task' is one which challenges me. I
am so accustomed to living in chaos with my hubby's hours and our son's extreme life-long behavior issues,
that I have learned to cope by being in the moment....but chronically. That is to say....I have chosen (preferred)
to 'go with the flow' to the point where I haven't ordered my day by setting the clock so to speak. Case in
point....at around 11:00 this morning...just about an hour ago now...I was realizing (again!) that I am likely not
drinking enough water. I amped it up a notch with the thought and purposed to start doing that and was going
over to the computer to log this as a symptom....or at least as a journal entry...along with the other data. I
became aware of a myriad of tasks that suddenly came like a wind to sidetrack my intentions. Thoughts like, 'I
should call my sister so she can send out an extra invite....but before I do that...I better allow 3 hours for her
loquacity...but what about the need to talk to her before I see my daughter-in-law, which will be soon....and
then there's the phone call I forgot to make 2 days ago for my father-in-law who's a vet...I'd best do that
first...but then I may forget about the matter of time management as a symptom and I might forget to log this
and should....and I should....and I HAVE made lists for years to help frame my day. Gosh golly...just realized
that I had gotten away from this helpful habit lately...maybe since the Proving. Not sure....this has helped to
loosely guide/guard my time against wasted time & unfulfilled purposes. It may be that my brain is finally
gelling from those holes that have been there for too long. I know I have had scatter-braineditis for a long
time....I just can't remember how long. No pun intended.
16/00:00 MIND 10 The day is a blur. I know it started with going to Panera w/my hubby for breakfast before meeting with a
young client for a follow-up. My hubby excused himself and I was able to focus on taking some notes and was
pleased that this person seems to be doing well. Way better than when she started, but she is also seeing a
therapist, upon my recommendation. It has been encouraging to me that both the therapist and myself have
provided the same Tx plan as far as what to read, what to do and what to avoid and what to focus on. I did
experience some symptoms that resembled a vague headachy, tired feeling and I needed to lay down when I
got home. I wondered how much of this was my absorbing my client's stuff and what was just a valid symptom
of my own. Our son's cat's are waking us up at night...at least the male, who will take a toy...carry it into the
hall outside our door and then literally cry over it. We love this cat....he's a hoot and a honey...but losing sleep
is getting old and taking it's toll. I don't have any other symptom's to report for this day. My previous
tranquility and almost effervescent gratitude has mellowed some, but remains.
18/11:00 MIND 10 While standing at church this morning, I found myself rubbing my back around the area of my adrenals,
especially the left side. It felt achy & clogged, like I needed to drink a lot more water only I wasn't particularly
thirsty. The plumber who had come several days ago mentioned a word - 'Deglutinate.' I'm not sure if this is a
bonafide expression....but my thoughts as of late are around my need to detoxify, especially my liver and
kidneys. I'm looking forward to the end of the Proving & being free to tend to this next step in addressing my
health. I'm hoping to treat myself to a massage as I have become aware of numerous aches & pains that come
and go & I know I need to address some of these spinal/muscle issues.
18/15:30 MIND 10 Around 3:30pm or so I became irritable. I realized that I had been going, going, going and had not stopped to
eat & this with only fruit & a peanut butter bar for breakfast. What struck me is that I know I need to eat well
every 3 hours or so, but it's like I lost track of time and was compelled to get misc. chores done. I found myself
resenting my hubby who was wallowing in doing the things he loves on his day off. Why wasn't I doing the
same thing? I felt responsible for cleaning up the cat's puke as we had fed her something other than her usual
fare...knowing this might happen....I was feeling indentured almost...and not choosing to just stop and get off
the tyranny-of-the-urgent-but-mundane track. I could have at any point in time opted to just take a day of rest.
It was so beautiful outside and that's all I really wanted to do was to sit outside & read my book 'Heaven.'
When I noticed that I was starting to shake from low-blood sugar I made my hubby aware that I needed him to
jump in & tend to some culinary chores.