Promethium muriaticum Entire Proving Journal

Promethium‐mur Journal 79
04/17:00 MIND 116 (per Dream) Building sense of dread and fear. How can I escape, how can I avoid this situation. So much
dread and fear of this event coming the following moment. No one else seemed upset, this made me angry.
Why am I only one that thinks it is absurd? Next morning, okay, battle about to start. I tried to withdraw
myself into this room. I thought I could get out that way, instead this woman rolled this stone over the door.
04/17:01 MIND 116 (per Dream) Felt really disturbed. This fear and dread of a threat coming to get me. (HG) Heart beating
faster. (Not normal for me) These people where going to do harm, violence and killing. I had to wait for it to
happen. Agonizing, this horrible thing was going to happen and I couldn't escape or change it, I had to be in
this place.
04/17:02 MIND 116 (per Dream) Like a group of people were going to attack, people wanting to do harm. How can these people
do this? How can they come here and inflict harm? The stabbing violence, the old part, hand to hand combat,
the weapons laying around were Medieval. Like the Lord of the Rings battle, axes into battle. Like blood. I
knew there would be horror and blood. Good versus Evil. I was the good one. The evil, was impending, and
it was unstoppable. No one else thought I was good. No one else saw the injustice of it.
04/17:03 MIND 116 (per Dream) I was feeling this is absurd… open your eyes, let's try to get out of here. That no one else,
thought it was a problem, they were complacent. I was being ignored.
04/17:04 MIND 116 (per Dream) Felt helpless. I couldn't get away from this force that was going to come, I couldn't get away
from it on my own. I was terrified. Very helpless. Bleak, dark, isolated. Then shut up in this room. For a
second, thought I could escape, then this big stone was rolled over doorway. Then it was dark. Like a movie
going off.
04/17:05 MIND 116 (per dream) When woman rolled stone, I thought she was going to help me, then it became clear, game over.
The battle outside, just a matter of time before they got me.
04/17:06 MIND 116 (per Dream) Complacent, they didn't think it was a problem, not doing anything about it. (teeth chattering).
They weren't aware. Even though weapons all over, I knew they could see the weapons, everything else
looked normal. They are fine with status quo, don't care to do anything to make situation better. Almost a
lazy. Like a giving up. a lack of awareness. Just going thru motions. They are complaisant, they are not
doing anything. I was so angry, I'm going to die! You are going to die! How can you not do anything?
04/17:07 MIND 116 (per Dream) The force that was coming - so ugly and violent and dark, people that on outside looked normal,
were in fact going to commit horrible atrocities to innocent people, They were combined together, they were a
force, combined together to commit violence, like a mob, like a team.
04/17:08 MIND 116 I couldn't understand why, nothing made sense. I felt very alone because of this. I was trying to express my
concern it was falling on deaf ears.
04/17:09 MIND 116 (per Dream) The location of the dream, UK, I thought it was nice peaceful thing, on vacation at a place that I
love, a very sacred spiritual place. They were taking something that was so sacred to me and there would be
blood and violence. This is my special place.
04/17:10 MIND 116 (per Dream) You are desecrating it. Like a rape. It's a violation on a deep level. This place, everyone has a
right to have this special place, this safe place that is pure and calm, and a white light. Like oneness. How
one experiences spirituality, certain places can lead you in that direction, a meditative place where time and
space don't exist. Certain places remind you of connectedness of everything. It's euphoric and sublime. It's
blissful. Not just peace but joy. Connects you with timelessness, your soul recognizes them, and you can't
ignore them. You're been there before on some level, your soul has known it before. That feeling that
reminds you that you are more than this physical body, lifts you out of this world.
04/17:11 MIND 116 (per Dream) A white light = pure essence of being. Beyond this plane of existence, it's pure energy. It's like
where we all come from, it's everything, it's consciousness.
04/17:12 MIND 116 (per Dream) Opposite of complacent = Aware. Wanting nothing bad to happen there. Actively aware,
engaged, seeking, they are taking action.
04/17:13 MIND 116 (per Dream) Taking action = trying to illicit change. Positive change. Trying to improve the situation, take
control. Trying to change the outcome. They are doing what they think is right. You can't help it. You
can't NOT act, or you may as well die. If something is happening you don't like, I can't just sit there and not
doing anything. I need to voice opinion, I need to be heard, I need to do something. I'm not going to roll
over, if it seems something is going to happen that I don't want to have happen, I can't sit there and not do
anything. I want to try my hardest to make things right. To express myself.
04/17:14 MIND 116 (per Dream) No matter what happens, at least, you are advocating for yourself. You can have peace of
knowing that you tried.
04/17:15 MIND 116 This is magic.