Promethium muriaticum Entire Proving Journal

Promethium‐mur Journal 78
08/18:10 MIND 16 I'm frustrated with myself. I'm making too many mistakes and I'm confused.
08/20:00 MIND 16 I'm driving back from soccer and I went to our old house!! We moved from that house 2.5 months ago and I
have never done that during that last 2.5 months. Again I feel frustrated with myself.
09/13:00 MIND 16 Last Tuesday (day 2) I had an auto accident. Someone hit my car right after I dropped off my daughter at
school. I just got her insurance information & drove to my work. I called her insurance when I got to work and
after that I totally forgot about it. I even didn't tell my husband when I talked to him on the phone that day.
Today (day 9) I was reminded of the accident because someone called from her insurance company to
schedule a repair appointment. I thought I should record this as it happened during the proving and also
because I didn't care much about the accident even though the damage to my vehicle is bad.
09/20:00 MIND 16 A few days ago (day 2 of proving) someone hit my car in a parking lot; it did some damage, a few things were
broken. It was so strange because I forgot to tell my husband about it. I told him a few days later. Didn't feel
like a big deal but I would have liked to have remembered to tell him that day.
10/10:00 MIND 16 I am at work and I feel so good and light, kind of relieved. It's close to my feeling right before I took the first
dose of the remedy. I'm thinking probably the remedy is wearing off.
11/19:00 MIND 16 (Prover via phone. She is holding the remedy in a relaxed state and describing any sensations that come:) I
feel like I'm in a cloud. It's light blue, grey. I'm holding a metal in my hands, and there's a little bit of heat in
it. I feel like it's a grey, silvery-grey color. I'm in peace. I don't have any emotional feelings. I have clear
thoughts. I see the cloud but I don't feel it in my head like I have been. I don't feel confused like I have been.
I don't have it in my head; my head is clear. Inside I feel peace, nothing else. I see white, light blue, like a
beautiful blue sky with a cloud floating in it. It's not like a cloudy, foggy, grey sky. It's a Minnesota sky. I
love the Minnesota sky. It's clear, it's beautiful. I feel like I have it in my hand. Beautiful, peaceful, white
cloud. My body is feeling fine, nothing is going on.
11/19:00 MIND 16 (Prover via phone. She is holding the remedy in a relaxed state, and describing any sensations that come:) I'm
going to open my eyes now. I opened my eyes and I thought I was on the ground. When my eyes were closed,
I realize I felt like I was up in the sky. Upon opening my eyes, I feel like I'm down on the ground, like I
landed and now I'm down.
15/08:14 MIND 109 Since this is the second time this morning that she has expressed irritation - which is surprising to me because
she is such a good natured person!!! - I ask her if there is anything else she is feeling irritated about.
00/00:00 MIND 115 Woke up and had to do some yoga. I usually put this off. Couldn't not do it.
06/11:00 MIND 115 Prover has not been sending in journal.
10/09:45 MIND 115 Throughout the proving I have been processing grief. A good friend (around 35 years) mother got a severe
blood infection. The experience they went through from learning of the sickness and finally the outcome and
her passing on day 7 of the proving has made me think about my fathers death. It was about 2 1/2 years ago.
It breaks my heart. The pain and anguish felt by the family and loved ones. Sadness. A sense of being
helpless. What can I do? but other than being there, not much. I found it healing to talk about these feelings.
Talk about the good in it. Talk about the love. It still hurts. It is a deep pain. I feel it deep in my heart. It is
suffocating. Drawing the energy from my throat, mouth and jaw into my heart. Collapsing inward.
10/09:45 MIND 115 My family decided to make a move across the country from MN to WA just before the proving. This process
has been a roller coaster. Many changes are taking place. It is stressful, yet exciting. My husband has left
already. It was very sad the morning he left. We (husband, daughter, and self) were all in tears. Knowing
that we may not see each other in person for a couple of months was very difficult. There was a sense of deep
love and vulnerability. Fear of a last goodbye. It is same same sensation deep in my heart. Missing, longing,
loving. My heart is absorbing all of the pain. Holding it, tightening around it.
13/12:30 MIND 115 Deep sorrow. I am grieving the death of my father and a dear friends mother. I feel a pain deep in my heart. I
am choked up and having difficulties physically expressing. I am attempting to hold back the tears which is
creating a sensation of choking. It is hard to swallow. I am allowing people to comfort me in my grief. I
would rather run away and avoid it all but am not.
00/00:00 MIND 116 It is difficult to put my thoughts into words, my mind works more slowly. For example, wording emails takes
an extra long time; I delete what I write and re-write it several times. Makes a simple task quite arduous.