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Promethium‐mur Journal 58 20/08:23 MIND 9 Things are good with my son - he's not so irritated with me - he can't hold a grudge very long - I think it is about (her new boyfriend). 01/13:02 MIND 10 Just after taking remedy, I was feeling peaceful & grateful for the overcast day, grateful for the way the traffic was moving, namely slowly. I experienced a bit of a surreal feeling in that normally when traffic moves so very slow (due to Construction) I am a tad agitated. The slower pace seemed very conducive to my mood in the moment and to the momentum of the calm of the remedy itself inside me. 01/13:45 MIND 10 While grocery shopping, I noticed that I was suddenly extremely tired. Exhausted would be a good word. My husband commented that he felt the same way & I wondered again if this was something that was a result of too little sleep & too long a day the day before, or if it was a symptom of the remedy. How could we both be experiencing the same sudden & intense symptom at the same time? Oh well! 02/12:50 MIND 10 Took my second dose of the remedy & felt peaceful & calm. After sitting on the deck for just a few minutes, I started to fall asleep. Like the day before, I became very tired & exhausted and just wanted to go to sleep. As I was falling asleep, I noticed funny pain in my left leg again, around the area of my knee, but just to the outside. It was like the previous pain, but felt more 02/12:50 MIND 10 more like a shadow of the pain I had experienced earlier. I don't know how to articulate this sensation, other than to say it felt similar to what was before, but different, like it was a memory pain or like the pain was still in the same area, but changing or diminishing somehow. 02/23:00 MIND 10 It is the evening of the second day of the proving and I must say that I have had a very pleasant time this evening. My son who is living with us came home and said he & his estranged wife decided to "call it quits." I was there for him emotionally and present in the moment with some conversation around this situation, but it was peaceful for me and an opportunity to just let him be cathartic, which he seldom has been. There was also an earlier opportunity to gently and calmly navigate with a client on the phone who is going through a rough time. I was able to exercise my boundary skills and the time on the phone was not stressful to me. I also noticed today that I was driving very slowly down a street after driving by a garage sale. I remembered yesterday, the first day of the Proving and realized that I had been driving slowly then as well and really, really enjoying the pace of that slowness. It felt good and like it was the way I was supposed to be moving....and the world around me as well. 03/14:23 MIND 10 I expected to notice something more. I feel really good in numbers of ways, gratitude is flowing through me like a river, I find it coming up through my heart doing ordinary things. Thinking of a person that would normally cause me worry or angst instead there is a feeling of "all is well". 03/14:25 MIND 10 The first day I was driving and it was overcast and I found myself grateful that things were moving at a super slow pace. Enjoying driving 10 MPH or less. 03/14:25 MIND 10 This gratefulness is replacing my typical worry. I am feeling that things will work out and it will be okay it’s a change. My hubby and I are a part of the prayer group for our church and we go online and look at who is needing prayers, and I am feeling that within the last few days, it is not disturbing me as it would prior to the remedy. It is not rattling my cage. 03/14:28 MIND 10 Calm, peaceful, all is well demeanor. 03/14:32 MIND 10 Tranquility. Almost a release from my normal compulsion to do something with my time. Some challenges and struggle with my husband's schedule. I often wake up and do not know what day it is, that has not changed, but with the remedy, I find that it doesn't matter to me. 03/14:35 MIND 10 At times there are things in disrepair in our life and then all of a sudden, things left undone are changed, renewed, finally being brought to fruition I guess. That has been the case very recently. 03/14:36 MIND 10 Suddenly a lot of energy around clearing out the spaces, organizing. Things on a list for sometime are easily attended to, in a very organic and serendipitous manner. 03/14:38 MIND 10 Grateful for others, other people, their concern, their expertise, and nature has taken on a new delightful quality. I would be perfectly content to sit and watch nature, I like being outside, I am especially grateful to be outside, even with the overcast weather. 03/14:40 MIND 10 Calmness, palpable calm. 03/14:43 MIND 10 I've had trouble remembering my dreams for the past two years and this morning I had a dream that I remembered, and this brought up a gratefulness, "Yes, this is how it should be!" 03/14:50 MIND 10 So grateful to remember my dream. Grateful for the knowledge gained and taking stock about the presence of the bacteria, not a lot of struggle, even though thematically it would seem to be a struggle. 03/14:55 MIND 10 I really, really appreciate color, we live in a neighborhood where all of the houses are brown and shades of gray. I selected a color called "Carmel Sunday", it was a little brighter than I expected, it was like getting a new style of haircut, "Do you like it?" It's like a Vincent van Gogh color.
Promethium‐mur Journal 59 03/14:57 MIND 10 Having a special awareness for those who are losing their vision. 03/14:58 MIND 10 All is well. 03/23:10 MIND 10 I am enjoying these last 3 days of this Proving. Life seems so easy…as if what I anticipate to be complicated & difficult, actually turns out to be something that is effortless. My mode these last few days is one of gratitude. For so long our home has been in need of repair. Every room needs refurbishment and our project list is extensive. It is just very recently that numbers of these unfinished matters are now being restored. Our church is currently engaged in a series called 'Toxic.' My Homeopathic Study Group is currently reading about Liver Disorders & Drainage and at home here, I am finally gaining much headway with long over-due clutter piles. It's like, 'out with the old/in with the new. 03/23:10 MIND 10 Things are coming together and being addressed on multiple levels, but it all seems to need a tearing apart (as in my son's marriage situation) before it can be restored. The old moldy window needed to be removed before the new, completely different window could go in. What is being presented in the macro is being observed in the micro. There is much to say about the thematic material in what I am reading. 'Heaven' by Randy Alcorn is holding my interest. The entire matter of the earth being renewed & resurrected along with those of us who's bodies will also be restored is clarifying, confirming, exciting and revealing. Between our actual death...and the New Heaven & New Earth.....where do we go and what will that be like, this place of 'intermittent.' Like Sleep? Paradise? An actual physical place? As I had shared with supervisor earlier today, my over-riding sense of this remedy is one that is producing for me a sense of tranquility. I am aware that my entire pace (inner & outer) has slowed way down and feels so right. 05/00:00 MIND 10 From Day 2 I have noticed that time seems to be expanded. Ordinary, familiar occurrences like making toast or running water for a bath seems to be elongated. Not in the sense that anything is taking too long or as if I'm in a hurry or impatient, but literally that my sense of how long some things would take has changed. Even in waiting a minute between sets at Snap Fitness, it has surprised & almost confused me because the time goes by in a way that I loose track of it, even with trying to watch the clock. I tried counting to 60 between a set but found my mind is elsewhere...not on rote routine or regular duties, but more like a sense of peace in each moment and a delight in all the goodness & grace that Providence orchestrates. 05/00:00 MIND 10 There's been numbers of reports & occurrences of hearing about people with blindness or losing their site, prior to but especially since the Proving. I've had more problems with my contacts but there's little stress around this. 05/00:00 MIND 10 Levity has become more a part of my daily experience. Not to borrow or parrot the word 'subtle', that proving supervisor has put out, but from the beginning of the Proving, one of the things I've been aware of is that my responses to matters are directed toward humor rather than being serious about things. I can certainly 'be with' a conversation of a serious nature, but have no inclination to camp out there. It's my inclination to make a joke of something. Even just after taking the remedy for the first time....it perhaps was subtle, but my response after a minute or two of not much happening was 'I'm Alright!' Maybe my Supervisor hasn't seen the commercials.....but I thought it was funny. Suffice to say I'm finding myself laughing far more than I normally do, even if it is at my own jokes. 05/00:00 MIND 10 The other day when I had spoken with supervisor, he encouraged me to focus on several things, including any Books/Movies. I have mentioned a book called 'Heaven' and found it ironic today that I sat down with my two sons who happened to be watching 'That 70's Show.' I rarely if ever watch TV with my children as they are all adults now and rarely here. This particular series just happened to be around the topic of church and Heaven. What are the chances of this??! And it was funny! Just as a post-script, it has occurred to me that many people may fear death because their idea of Heaven is warped. If it really was a place where we'd all be floating around on clouds with nebulous bodies while playing harps.....who the heck would want to go there?! 06/23:45 MIND 10 It's too late to do any computer work & I'm quite tired. I'm still experiencing an ease in my life and my outlook. This morning's devotional reading was poignant to the theme of Heaven, which has been subtly arising throughout these last few months, weeks & days. I'd like to share what I read before starting my day. 'Grow strong in the Light of My Presence. As My Face shines upon you, you receive nutrients that enhance your growth in grace. I designed you to commune with Me face-to-face, and this interaction strengthens your soul. Such communion provides a tiny glimpse of what awaits you in heaven, where all barriers between you and My Glory will be removed. This meditative time with Me blesses you doubly: you experience My Presence here and now, and you are refreshed by the hope of heaven, where you will know Me in ecstatic Joy. Psalm 4:6
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