PAVILION

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the reality you are only remembering
moment by moment, deluding yourself
with words, lying yourself in words, with
words, without words, verbs freezing
between the parentheses of abstraction,
logics erasing your own reality right in
front of you face, dialectic that drowns
you slowly, effortlessly suffocating you,
letting you breathe your own air, excesses
and reasons, useless heroism and
rapturous weariness, katharsis that isn’t
self-contained, walls tightening around
you in dizzying circles, and all you can do
is to drain yourself among the rigorous
rocks, toward the next circle, chaoses
and worlds perishing after one eye’s bat,
unseen sides of the things, abysses
barely suspected with the inner eyes,
permanently closed drawers, terraces
under the sun and underground caves,
the search for a later support, for a further
support, benchmarks you clumsily stumble
upon, papers with burned edges,
always a new stage, and more, and
more, you think you are a rocket and
you’re nothing but a satellite around a
point, deficient lung, pandemonia of
dreams, pandemonia of desire, doors
that will never open for you, doors you
will never know about, miraculous guides
and unique places, virtual paradises, hallways
you could walk on forever, chaos of
the primality of unspeakable words, of
unthinkable words, edges meeting each
other somewhere at the end, margins
you are slipping on when without even
realizing it, smells of subterranean herbs,
the ether in a vial, trees in an outer
scenery, Dionysian music harassing you,
muses stalking you everywhere, lent
Orphei on the lakeshore, falsified Gods
who don't believe in themselves anymore,
time elevating you and crushing
you afterwards, Minotaurs and the eternal
labourers of the alternative infernos,
everything and nothing, now and never,
here and nowhere, nomadism pushed to
the paper’s limits of endurance, freedom
that never let you stop, never let you put
an end to it, never…
We offer the chance of the un-failures. we
actively join in the creation of the contexts
allowing us to take action and to
take part. the public sphere issues the
necessary key factors for this process all
we need now is the wish.
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