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XIVauthority I deduce the need for the revolutionary emancipation of the Church.Only then will it be the true Church‖.Constant poverty, serious illness, news of the death of his dear ones, and theagonizing feeling of total weakness in the face of moral evil in his own life, ledJanski eventually to the Sacrament of Penance. When he began to keep hisdiary in a systematic fashion, he believed he would be able to take advantageof his past sad experiences. However, the entire project ended in painfuldisillusionment: ―My actions did not follow the counsel of my experience‖.The recollection in writing of his great sins was without result and with littleeffect for the immediate future. The resolutions he made were too weak. Afterthe personal revelation there appears a desire to "‖Make a profession of faith...recognize that before there can be unity in thought there must be uprightness ofconscience... be united with God; go to confession‖. There appears at this timenot only the ―sincere will to reject all evil once and for all‖, but at the sametime Janski’s feeling of personal weakness, and a great desire to be aidedsupernaturally by the Savior.Several years of atheism and materialism, and twelve years of unbelief endedwith a long confession in six sessions. From this moment there began apassionate and eventually victorious battle with the moral evil in his soul. In1835 Janski notes that he returned to confession eight times. He attended Massoften, and prayed zealously for long periods of time. From the beginning of1836 and the foundation of a regular common life after the pattern ofcontemporary novitiates which united poverty with rugged penances, Janski’ssystematic and intense efforts in the area of the spiritual life and his strivingfor holiness improved noticeably.While fulfilling his superiorship in a spirit of the Gospel, Janski would say ofhimself: ―I am the servant of our community with the obligation of working