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189Rough-draft of a letter to H. Jaroszyński of TywrowoLetter Nr. 56Paris, February 16, 1830My dear and kind Henry! 191Fifteen months ago, while passing through Frankfurt, I wrote you aletter with an explanation and apologies for my silence to that time, beggingyou to write a few words to me, poste restante, at Paris. Unfortunately, I havenot received such a letter as yet. There are two possible explanations: eithermy letter did not reach you or you are angry with me.In any case, it undoubtedly becomes my responsibility to initiate ourcorrespondence anew from here. If you could view my present situation, fromthe last few moments spent with you to the present time... If you couldenvision the fatal waves that have convulsed my feelings in this meantimewithout let-up, and witness the terrible chaos in all my thoughts, desires andactions... If you could see my soul, completely seething with unrest, strainingto calm the intellectual and moral storms 192 that torment mewithout end ... I believe that you could not look upon me with other thansympathetic mercy, and that you would forgive my forgetfulness in yourregard in view of my present suffering and weakness.191 Henry Jaroszyński /1804; died after 1872/ - the son of landed aristocracy from Tywrowo nearWinnica; he graduated from secondary school at the Piarist Fathers in Warsaw; from 1823 hestudied in the department of administration and obtained his master's degree in 1826. He was aclose friend of Bogdan Jański; in fact, they were roommates for same time.192 The inner, moral battle connected with his philosophy of life had reached its peak.