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614offend you; although, naturally, in that case I will not touch on more intimatematters that might refer to you.On the other hand, I shall ask God, and I shall make a very serious effort todo without this assistance, and to write to you at great length and very often. Idecided to use this assistance in order not to keep you waiting for such a longwhile for a reply; for God knows how much I am now suffering on that account,and how often I reproach myself. I ask God to have you forget about me duringthat period when I do not write temporarily... forget that you have a friend wholoves you dearly, a companion throughout your early years, for whose tardy wordsyou wait; rather than have you. feel even a portion of the discomfort and distresswith which the just God continues to torment my heart in punishment of my guiltagainst you.Write, then, dearest Adam! Write, opening your heart to me with completeconfidence. Although I may have lost all right to. such by my slothfulness, I stillhave that right by reason of my sincere, undisturbed, and very keen attachment toyou. Your kind heart leads me to expect that you will receive this assurancewithout fear of being disappointed.Some time ago, during the Winter, Theophilus Kwiatkowski 805 told meabout your plans in reference to Poland. Would that I could, at least in part,alleviate and soothe your sufferings... Believe me, there is no sacrifice I would notundergo! How does this whole matter stand?I thought, and I still think, that if you came to Paris, coute que coute 806 ,everything could be done more easily. Ultimately, and above all, you would findhere people and circumstances among whom you could spend the present timemore bearably.I don’t know how you feel about it. But as for as, the older I get the moream I convinced that there is no way in which we can establish closer, friendly805 Theophil Kwiatkowski (1809-1891) - A Polish artist, born at Pułtusk, who died in France. Hewas a friend of Chopin, who also had a reputation as a singer. He studied in Warsaw and Paris. Hisworks: Chopin’s last moments (1850), Chopin’s Polonez. A colleague of Jański in the grammarschool at Pułtusk and in Warsaw.806 At all cost.