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526much kindness from him already, and aware of the deficit in the treasury that wasthe result of charitable gifts.What could I do? I had to be resigned and humble, at the least avoiding theloss of interior spiritual peace, and ready for cross merited by minor past offences.Moreover, I had to find some ways of making money immediately. I was to repaymy creditors in instalments. I confided in Witwicki, telling him of my position,with all the details. His advice confirmed me in my feelings and resolution. Thatis, he confirmed me in humility, in the need for petitions, and new agreementswith easier creditors; with the more difficult creditors I will postpone a finalsettlement for as long as I can. Meanwhile, I have taken on the task of writingarticles for one of the Catholic periodicals 620 and I accepted and began givinglessons to one pupil at 20 sous an hour. N.B. With all of this, I am constantlyinvolved in the work of repairing the spiritual condition of the brothers.Then, this week (I say this in confidence. No one is to read this, as well asthe entire letter, except you, M. Caesar) in which at the very explicit and insistentcommand of my confessor, trembling and with the sense of my own unworthiness,for the first time in my life I experienced the inexpressible happiness of receivingHoly Communion daily. On the last day, Saturday, I received M. Caesar’s letterwith help, 100 percent plus 100 percent (I was seeking 1,500, and God gives3,000!).From whom? From a person who loves God. Through whom? Throughyou, M. Caesar, my dearest brother and benefactor in Christ the Lord. God isalmighty, and his mercy is without end! 621xThis fragment is deleted in the autograph.620 “L’Universite Catholique”621 The letter is without conclusion. The rough draft is preserved in CRR: Mss 8637a; pp. 229-238.