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151Dear Michael, take this request to heart! Do something about this.Consult with Alphonse and with Stephen... Help me to settle this matterproperly once and for all! Don't waste any time. Do it now!Next, I have some very sad news for you, I don't know whether youhave heard it as yet, our dear Anthony Jański died of consumption in NewYork as long ago as October, 1834. 122 Hear a Mass for this intention. DoesStephen know yet? I am not writing to tell him. Don't give him this news all atonce...Finally, there is one thing for which I must ask your pardon. Not longago I wrote to Królikowski...N.B. while things are going somewhat more easily for me, I am stilltroubled by past debts /which, unfortunately for me in my present situation, areconsiderable - several thousand!/ 123 Therefore, in writing to Królikowski, Iasked him among other things that if he should be in correspondence with you,he should remind you of the silly 1.000 zł., tell you that I am very much in theneed of the money, and that if you would be in any position to send them tome, I would be greatly relieved. It is true that I am in need... true that I coulduse the money... But surely you are also poor, 124 and I do not wish to pressureyou by way of a third person - except that this third person is, as it were, one ofus. Do not be angry... Pardon me!After all, you have no right to be angry. You have my friendship myheart, my whole self! I am always one with you! And so you do not have theright to be angry! /Notwithstanding, there is no reason to sin against the truth/.I am not always completely the same in your regard. Today, I love you with122 An error: 12-24-1834.123 These were the so-called debts of the House of Jański, i.e. of the poor persons who wereadmitted as members.124 M. Jaroszewski was then an assessor in the criminal court at Warsaw. He would shortly bepromoted to a Government Commission. He never returned the money to his converted cousinBogdan Jański, and continued to be a dark cloud in his life, as he had once been by his scandalouslife.