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474Letter Nr. 111[Rough-draft of letters to K. Mikorski]Paris, July 14, 1836You are gravely mistaken, my unhappy brother Xavier 514 , thinking that Iam angry with you, and that this is the reason you have not received a letter fromme until now. (If I had out from someone else, rather than from you, about yourmost recent failures and afflictions... if my feelings for you stemmed only fromkind of human sympathy, or from special kindness on my part then, because ofyour bad behavior, I could freely cast them out of my heart, and leave you toyourself... but since I am not guided by personal attitudes) x , it isn’t so. If Iapproached you in order to help you to enter upon the right way, I did not do sowith any human consideration in mind, or as a result of personal feelings, which Imight change or cast out of my heart at will; but simply because Christ, who diedfor all of us sinners in order to unite us all with God, commands special love forthe suffering, for those who have gone astray, and for those who wish to heconverted. As a result, in spite of your failures and errors, I cannot desert you aslong as I feel, in conscience, that your desire to improve is sincere. I can weepover you, but I cannot be angry with you. I owe my love for you, not to myself,but to Christ. In the future, try, through greater zeal and stability in your life, toshow that you sincerely desire to improve, and not to reject the grace of God’smercy (thus to become worthy of the grace of God, who has enlightened you.I did not write to you until now, first because I confess that, when Ireceived your first letter, I was so confused by you wrote, and your situationseemed so difficult to disentangle, I did not know what to write to you) x .514 Xavier Mikroski - a young insurgent, and, after 1834, an emigrant. He lived first in England,then in Paris (1835/6), where he originally belonged to the TPD, and then became an aspirant forthe new community of B. Jański. However, he became involved in a love-affair with a youngFrench girl and he had to be sent to Orleans to the school for emigrants under the direction of Rev.John Dąbrowski, a classmate of B. Jański at Pułtusk. But this plan also failed because the girl wentwith him. This is the reason why the letter was written.