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21send you the letter with a check? I would rather wait a few days, and when themoney arrives send it all together. Meanwhile, the first, second and the seventhof January have passed and the money is still not here. Finally, I received aletter from our good secretary, Dennis Lanckoroński, in which he informs methat due to various formalities at the office I cannot expect to receive any moneybefore the 15 th of January. I flatter myself thinking that failure to receive aletter from me for such a long time must cause you some distress. Therefore,not wishing to wait another week before I receive the money - which might bedelayed again - I chose to send this letter immediately. Please, then, hold meexcused. And although I justify myself by reason of circumstances, I beg youby all that is good, do not use this or any similar excuses to get even with me.Rather, within three days, send me news about your health and about whatyou are doing. I ask you, I beg you, for otherwise your would make me verysad. I am already very lonely without any news from you.My dearest Alexandra, once again I beg you. I have scribbledenough... too much! And I have probably bored you. Now I must step downfrom my podium, be done with my travelogue, and cease my ranting. I mustsign off quickly and take this letter to the post office.You don't need to write a long letter. I beg you, simply tell me aboutyourself and about your feelings. This once at least do not bother about arough copy. Do not make any apologies about frequency. Let it be a shortletter, and a clean copy immediately.Finally, I must ask you about Bońkowska. 13 Strive for respect. I amfaithful. Do not hold my delays against me. If what I am doing is wrong, I can,at least in part, offer reasons for my conduct. I expect to mail this letter today.In any case, take care. Be on your guard in Warsaw, for you know what yourexperience there is. If you were to skip Warsaw completely, or spend as littletime as possible there, I would feel safer. Keep yourself occupied with work13 Peter Zawadzki - a half-brother of Alexandra.