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196friends, and even for these payments my present balance of funds does notsuffice. Once they have gone, I shall have no one from whom to borrow tosatisfy even my simplest needs.Dear Joseph, I urgently beg you to save me if you can; for, as I loveGod, I do not know where I can turn... I feel that my head is splitting when Ithink of such things.In July I received my subsidy for England - therefore, more than theusual subsidy. Consequently, I would have no other debts, except what I wouldowe you. I have cut my expenses by 2/3: I am living with Królikowski. An so Iexpect to be richer than I have been in past semesters. I urgently beg you...You would do me the greatest favor in all the world! I am in dire need of 1.000zł., i.e. 600 fr.! You can certainly count on being repaid in July. Undoubtedlyyou do not have that much cash on hand. But, it will surely be easier, mucheasier, for you to find it somewhere than it would be for me here. Truly, I lackthe words to describe my desperate need, or to phrase my plea for help. Yourlove and friendship for me will make up that lack.N.B. It is understood that you will not reveal this to anyone, even to ourfriends. I am aware that you are living in your secluded spot with the brotherof our dear friend Anthony Barciński. Please do not speak even to him aboutthis. I love Anthony; however, I would not wish him to know of myembarrassing situation. If he were in the position to do so, he would surelyhelp me; but he hasn't got much himself. Therefore, I would not mentionanything to him about this. Only Królikowski knows everything, even aboutthis letter.Dear Joseph, I conclude this letter with hope. With hope, because Iknow that you will use your credit and your connections to save me. One morething: I mentioned that my colleagues would be leaving here within a monthand a half. Perhaps some of them will want to leave sooner. Therefore, if youcan help me, and I am sure that you will want to do so, time is of the essence.It will take 10 or 11 days for this letter to reach you. You should receive it by