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509Letter Nr. 126Paris, October 15, 1836This morning, when a boy came to pick up M. Caesar’s key 589 , I was juston my way out, and I could not stop to write a few words. Misericordia omnipeccato!Indeed, there are no words by which I can justify my offence against M.Caesar. I would like to see M. Caesar, if not to justify myself, at least to ask hispardon. However, I dare not come without explicit permission to do so, for it maybe that M. Caesar is so angry with me that he does wish to see me!When I started out in the morning, I had urgent business, but nothing gotdone! In town someone detained me until now. Upon returning home, before I doanything else, I am writing this petition to you. M. Caesar’s letter of the 19 th oflast month came at a time when I was expecting a decision 590 from the Ministryabout the Affairs of our House. I was especially anxious to include news of this inmy response. But the decision was put off from day to day. This was a newoccasion for my negligence. And, just when I received the decision, I heard asabsolutely certain that M. Radziszewski had written someone that he was cominghere with M. Caesar on the 5 th of this month, another reason for neglect. I waiteduntil the 5 th , and then I learned from Prince Ogiński that it is not at all certain whatM. Caesar will come here. I am in despair! And now, finally, M. Caesar is alreadyin Paris. And I did not respond to his letter.Yet, I am always the same, always a sinner and always, forever, sincere inmy love for M. Caesar. I am the same, but convicted and most severely punishedfor my neglect of correspondence. Therefore, as. I love you, I formally requestpermission to see you. Impatient, I wish to see you as soon as possible, perhapseven this evening.589 Caesar Plater, in leaving for a long vacation, left key to his house with Jański.590 B. Jański had submitted a petition to open a Polish school in Paris, and another to obtainpermission for candidates to the new community applying from the provinces to reside in Paris.