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146Letter Nr. 38Paris, September 28, 1834Friend Michael!What's this you write to me about past failure to remit a sum, and offorgiveness? Do you know me so little as to think that I could be angry withyou, or hold a grudge against you?We have not written to each other for such a long time. This is my fault,as well as yours. Apparently neither of us has completely overcome hislaziness. But, what is past is past. Let's do better in the future. For my past,dear Michael, I can swear that while my pen may have been silent, in my heartthe memory of our fraternal friendship was never silenced.Thank you most sincerely for the note you wrote; I will be anxiouslyexpecting a longer letter. Address the envelope: a Martin Benoiste fil... etc. Putmy name on the enclosure... And send your address. Right now I am feelingwell; but, especially this year, I had a problem with my lungs, and wasbothered by a constant cough for several months. Finally, I was laid low by astrange fever. All this resulted from my physical and moral problems. /Tomake a living demands hard work./ At present I am eking out a living inliterary work, book selling-publishing, 118 employed by publishers of Polishworks, but I have not lost hope that things will be better. What bothers memost are the debts. In the past two or three years these have accumulated toalmost 2000 fr.; and, in spite of hard work and frugality, I find it hard to scrapetogether enough money to pay them off. Therefore, please remind Arcadius/Gościński/ about the small debt that he owes me. Although, the amount issmall, right at this time it would be of considerable help. I am even including118 At this time Bogdan Jański was editing practically all the Polish books and pamphlets writtenby emigrants and published by A. Pinard, e.g., "Pan Tadeusz" of Adam Mickiewicz.