THE DHAMMAPADA: THE WAY OF THE BUDDHA, VOL. 9-12 The ...
THE DHAMMAPADA: THE WAY OF THE BUDDHA, VOL. 9-12 The ...
THE DHAMMAPADA: THE WAY OF THE BUDDHA, VOL. 9-12 The ...
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<strong>THE</strong> <strong>DHAMMAPADA</strong>: <strong>THE</strong> <strong>WAY</strong> <strong>OF</strong> <strong>THE</strong> <strong>BUDDHA</strong>, <strong>VOL</strong>. 9-<strong>12</strong> 5<br />
<strong>The</strong>se are all your dreams. When you are not dreaming at all, when the sleep has disappeared and you are awake,<br />
there is no heaven, no hell. That state Buddha calls ”liberation”: liberation from greed, liberation from fear.<br />
And if you act out of awareness, if your renunciation happens out of awareness, it is true renunciation because<br />
then you really don’t do anything, things start happening. You see something is wrong; it drops, it simply drops.<br />
You don’t have to make any effort. You see the ugliness of anger and anger evaporates; the very seeing becomes<br />
the transformation. You understand your desire and the futility of your desire that it cannot be fulfilled, that it<br />
is unfulfillable, that you are in a vicious circle. Seeing it that you are moving in circles you jump out. This is<br />
also renunciation, but you don’t jump out of desire for another desire: to get into heaven, to avoid hell. You are<br />
not jumping out of desire; you are only changing one desire for another. You are exchanging worldly desires with<br />
unworldly desires, but desire is desire. You can change the object, but the nature of desire remains the same.<br />
This is a great contribution of Buddha to religious consciousness. He says: Don’t renounce, let renunciation<br />
happen. If it happens on its own accord it has a beauty of its own, it has grace, and you never repent, you never<br />
look back. If you renounce, if you make effort, your renunciation will bring sadness to you. And many times you<br />
will start thinking whether you have done right or wrong. Many times your mind will waver, many times desire<br />
for the renounced will again surround you like a cloud. Many times you will be full of lust and greed and fear.<br />
Many times the world will attract you again. That is natural.<br />
Hence Buddha says: FOR IF IN YOUR RENUNCIATION YOU ARE RECKLESS AND BREAK YOUR<br />
WORD, IF YOUR PURPOSE WAVERS, YOU WILL NOT FIND <strong>THE</strong> LIGHT.<br />
It can happen only in a wrong kind of renunciation that your purpose wavers, because when you renounce with<br />
effort it is always a halfhearted affair. A part of your mind says, ”Renounce, because if you don’t renounce you<br />
will suffer.” A part of your mind says, ”Don’t renounce. Who knows whether there is any life after death or not?<br />
And who knows whether renunciation is rewarded or not? Nobody comes back from the other shore to tell the<br />
truth. It may be all imagination, it may be all a strategy of the priests. Who knows?”<br />
Doubt is bound to persist, and when doubt is there there is wavering, and when doubt is there you are split.<br />
When doubt is there you can never be wholeheartedly into anything; you remain divided. You can never be an<br />
individual, indivisible. And the person who renounces for some motive is renouncing through the mind and that<br />
is impossible. You cannot renounce through the mind.<br />
Mind is the first thing to be renounced and you are trying to use mind for renunciation? Mind will poison<br />
everything. It will create new desires in you, it will create new greeds, it will create new ambitions, it will create<br />
new egos in you. Look at the so-called holy people, the so-called saints and mahatmas. <strong>The</strong>y look more egoistic<br />
than anybody else. <strong>The</strong>ir faces look sad, as if they are in great pain, suffering. And their eyes? <strong>The</strong>y are looking<br />
at you always with that attitude of ”holier-than-thou.” <strong>The</strong>y are condemnors; they will call you sinners. <strong>The</strong>y<br />
are ready to throw you into hell and hellfire. For themselves they are hoping that they will be in heaven enjoying<br />
heavenly pleasures forever and forever.<br />
What kind of renunciation is this? This is a wrong kind of renunciation and you cannot attain to light through<br />
it; you will go on falling into deeper and deeper darkness. You have taken the first step in a wrong direction, and<br />
the first step is the most important step because the second will follow the first, and so on, so forth. And you will<br />
go on farther and farther away from the truth.<br />
Hence I don’t tell my sannyasins to renounce, although renunciation happens. Many of my sannyasins write to<br />
me, ”Beloved Master, you deceived us. We were thinking nothing has to be renounced, and now many things are<br />
simply disappearing.”<br />
Just the other day there was a letter. One sannyasin has written that his sexual desire has completely disappeared<br />
and he had tried his whole life to renounce it and he had never succeeded. And here we are not teaching to<br />
renounce anything, not even sexual desire, so his letter has a relevance. He says, ”You tricked us. I was thinking<br />
that I have come here to enjoy my sexual desire for the first time, because the whole life I have been trying to be<br />
a monk. Tired of it, utterly a failure in renouncing it, I had come here and now it has disappeared!”<br />
This is beautiful, if it has disappeared on its own accord. If you have not dropped it, it won’t come back again.<br />
If you have dropped it, it is bound to come back again because dropping it simply means repressing it. Dropping<br />
does not mean anything else; it simply means you have repressed it forcibly. Sooner or later, in some weaker<br />
moment, it will be back again and with a vengeance. But if it drops on its own... you have not done anything to<br />
drop it, not even a decision; you have not willfully acted on it, it is through understanding. Seeing the futility of<br />
it, seeing that it does not fulfill, that it is a kind of a toy.... You can remain engaged in it, it keeps you occupied.<br />
It keeps you so much occupied that you don’t have any time to look inwards. But it never takes you anywhere;<br />
you are always the same. It brings no integrity, it brings no joy. <strong>The</strong> more you know it, the more it becomes a<br />
boring phenomenon. <strong>The</strong> more you know it, the more boredom it brings.