THE GOD-MAN The Life, Journeys and Work of Meher Baba with an ...

258 THE GOD-MANOn Wednesday Baba arrived at 10.30 a.m. He did not walk up the hill as usual but came by car andappeared to be strained and tired. He went at once into the lounge, after greeting everyone. He said, 'Todaythere is nothing to explain. I did not feel like coming today. Yet I wanted to see you dear ones, so I decidedto come. I have much to think about before the meetings. My thinking is not just thinking: the wholeburden is upon me.'He inquired about the health of each individual, as usual. 'You must all be fit for the two days of themeeting. Dear Will', he went on, addressing one of us, 'I call you my archangel, and you are very devotedto me, and I love you intensely; but I cannot understand your saying every day "I am better today"'. Willexplained that he slept better every night. Baba made no comment but to others he said, 'I do not believeyou when you say you are very well'.'I used to say to the mandali', he went on, 'that in God's work maya always opposes: it is necessary. Justas illusion is necessary for the realization of God, so maya's force in opposing God's work gives strength tothe work. The greater the opposition from maya, the better the result.' He continued:"Before the mass darshan on the 12th, Ahmednagar had had a record rainfall. Sarosh cameto me to say that if the rain did not stop the darshan would have to be postponed. I said, what God wantswill happen. When the weather changed, it was thought to be Baba's miracle! That is absolute nonsense. Ido not say this to display humility: it is a fact. I said that I did not mind the rain. God may want rain, butthe meeting will be held. If it rains, they will get wet, they will have to change, and I shall have to change.The meetings on the 29th and 30th will be the first and last meetings of the kind. As the day approachesfor these meetings the burden is lowering on my head, just as the clouds lower in the sky. If you don't keepyour health it will be an additional burden."I sometimes seem to be speaking at random, but I am really working elsewhere."When you say 'I am ill, I am hungry, I am old, I am young, or I am not hungry and do not want thisfood', and so on, when you use all these I, I, I's, recollect that when your hands or legs are cut off, your'!'remains the same; whatever happens you remain the same. Why identify yourself with the body? Yet for24 hours a day you do so. Will used to say, 'I am thirsty'. He now says in old age, 'I am better'. If that weretrue it would mean that Will was the same limited