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Podujevo 1999 – Beyond Reasonable Doubtwhich is usually used in surgery. Then he yelled something that I could notunderstand and put the scalpel back in the pocket.Then I saw aunt Shefkate little further down in the yard. She was separatedfrom us. She was crying. She knew Serbian and she was saying somethingin Serbian, but I only understood, ‘they are only children’. Then oneof the soldiers pushed her while she was walking down the trail leading behindthe house. He shot her. My cousins started crying. When I looked atShefkate, she was already lying on the ground and they shot at her again.When this man shot my aunt several other soldiers were standing overthere, as well. He threw away his rifle and took another rifle from some soldier.Then he started shooting at us. When he started shooting, I was in the middleof our group, close to the wall. I leaned against the wall and slid to theground. When I was sliding, he was still shooting and he shot me twice inthe leg. He kept shooting and only after some time did he stop. One personcould not breathe normally, so I heard that person breathe heavily. Thenthey started shooting again. This time, I was shot in the arm and the back.The shooting ceased after some time. I could not hear a thing and I do notknow how long it lasted.Then I raised my head to look around because I was not lying, but sitting.My brother Shpetim was lying with his head on my legs, so I could onlysee half of his face. My cousin Fatos was lying on the ground in front of me.Something was coming out of his back, which meant that he was wounded.At first I thought he was dead, but he raised his head and then I knewhe was alive, but I did not know if he was feeling bad. Then I saw Enver’soldest son. I think Arbar 45 is his name. He was shot in the face; his facewas destroyed. Then I saw my granny Shehide, who was lying across fromme. She was all yellow and her eyes popped. She was lying across from agroup I was in. We were behind her. Then I saw Fezrie 46 , my aunt’s daughter-in-law.I could not see her face, but I saw her body. She was lying andshe was dark blue. Genc lay close to her and he raised his head. ‘Saranda,look what they did to Shpetim’, he said thinking about my brother. Then Iheard some voices and yelling and I told Genc, ‘Lie down’ and I went back45 Arbër Duriqi46 Fexhrie Blakqori Llugaliu141