preoccupation.<strong>Konrad</strong>’s partner had drifted off. A great longing for Alex<strong>and</strong>ra overcame him. Where was she? He sank into a chair <strong>and</strong>buried his tired head between his h<strong>and</strong>s. Had she gone off with someone else? All the misery of the past monthsovercame him, Katharina in Friedrich’s arms <strong>and</strong>now Alex<strong>and</strong>ra disappeared. He rose <strong>and</strong> for a long time searched for her among the gay crowd, but the harder hesearched the more elusive she became. How could she leave him like that?Suddenly a masked lady in a Georgian costume, wearing an authentic Immeretian necklace floated across his view. Shewas dancing in the arms of some Indian or Turk. A kartveli kalashvili, a daughter of Georgia? He pursued them, <strong>and</strong>when she noticed him, <strong>Konrad</strong> asked her for a dance.The lady stopped in mid-turn, disengaged herself <strong>and</strong> stood rooted, staring at him. She was smaller than Alex<strong>and</strong>ra, alithe fine-boned person with blond hair. Certainly no Georgian."Gamardjobat <strong>Konrad</strong>!" She exclaimed. "What a coincidence. You shaved off your beard! I almost did not recognize you."She embraced him <strong>and</strong> kissed him three times.<strong>Konrad</strong> was taken aback, he had no idea who she was. "Yes, I shaved it off this morning. All the young revolutionarieshide their faces behind beards now, it was about time I shaved mine off. But who are you?"She held him at a distance. "You are <strong>Konrad</strong>, aren’t you? Where is Alex<strong>and</strong>ra? I cannot believe it."Puzzled, <strong>Konrad</strong> looked at her. "Did we meet in Tiflis? You are no genuine Georgian!" He ran through all their friends inTiflis <strong>and</strong> shook his head. This mask really did hide its wearer.She took her mask off."Clara!" he shouted. "Clara, my secret love! Where do you come from, are you for real?"They sank into each other’s arms."We arrived from Istanbul two days ago. Joachim is here too. When I last saw him, he was dancing with some darkhairedItalian beauty. <strong>Konrad</strong>, it is so good to see you. How are you?"He kissed her most tenderly. "It is impossible to talk here, there is so much to say. Let’s find a quiet place to look at eachother."<strong>Konrad</strong> offered his arm <strong>and</strong> led her to an empty table as far away from the orchestra as possible.For a while <strong>Konrad</strong> just looked at her, very moved. To see this beloved, restrained woman was like oil on his sore heart.She smiled at him. "We bring greetings <strong>and</strong> love from all your friends in Tiflis. Arthur Leist obliged me to give you aGeorgian hug <strong>and</strong> kiss. They all miss you. There are letters to Alex<strong>and</strong>ra from Deda <strong>and</strong> Sophia <strong>and</strong> from Olga too." Shebubbled over in excitement. "We would have tried to find you tomorrow, but this chance meeting is wonderful."<strong>Konrad</strong> still could not believe his eyes. He took her h<strong>and</strong>s <strong>and</strong> kissed them. "But how did you get to this ball?""The diplomatic corps offered us the tickets, <strong>and</strong> we thought that it would be an appropriate homecoming celebration.You see, if one does not look for one another one always finds the unexpected."A turbaned Persian steered towards them, Joachim von Bredow. The two men hugged <strong>and</strong> kissed each other as neverbefore."We are missing Alex<strong>and</strong>ra," <strong>Konrad</strong> said disturbed. "I have not seen her for hours. Has she eloped with another man?""Yes, she has," Joachim said with a laugh, "with me! If she had not been dancing with her brother Niko, I would not haverecognized her. What a nice man Niko has become."<strong>Konrad</strong> sighed. At least she had not deserted him with some stranger, not yet. Joachim decided that this chance meetingcalled for a bottle of champagne <strong>and</strong> left."How is Alex<strong>and</strong>ra?" Clara asked her gray eyes searching his face full of concern."Ach, Clara, she is very well. After those long years of hard work in St. Petersburg she is flying at dizzying heights,discovering herself <strong>and</strong> innumerable things she has never tasted before, music, painting, her sharp mind, scientificresearch, <strong>and</strong> new variations on love. Sometimes I feel left behind <strong>and</strong> sometimes heavy, clumsy, <strong>and</strong> deserted."Clara’s eyes softened. "The years in St. Petersburg were a difficult test I imagine, do you feel that your marriage isendangered? Is she in love with an other man?""No, actually neither. It is much more complicated, Clara."Joachim returned with two bottles of champagne. His smile faded as he looked at them. He filled the glasses. "Prost, tothis unexpected reunion after five years! To your health, <strong>Konrad</strong>! What is it, you two look so serious?"Clara lowered her eyes.<strong>Konrad</strong> drank to Joachim <strong>and</strong> Clara <strong>and</strong> slumped in his chair. "I am tired. Last night we danced at another ball until thesmall hours, we slept little. I feel suspended in a strange, exhausted state, maybe that makes me maudlin. Clara, mysensitive friend, who listens so well, moved me to speak my heart. The relationship between Alex<strong>and</strong>ra <strong>and</strong> me is difficultat the moment, we are drifting along on parallel tracks. Alex<strong>and</strong>ra has embarked on a, for her, very exciting path <strong>and</strong> hasleft me behind. I am not entirely blameless in all of this, but cannot regain my former balance."He took a deep swill from his glass. In his present overwrought state the alcohol would not help. He waved this misgivingaway. Somewhere in the distance he noticed a Tcherkassian woman drift by, but she had long blond hair. It was clearlynot Alex<strong>and</strong>ra.102
Joachim viewed <strong>Konrad</strong> with sympathetic concern. "You are neither fish nor fowl, neither German nor Georgian, youhave lost some of your roots, <strong>Konrad</strong>. Is Alex<strong>and</strong>ra homesick?""You are right, <strong>and</strong> I have no real friend here to whom I could unburden myself. No, Alex<strong>and</strong>ra is not homesick in thestrict sense. She sometimes says that she has never felt so Georgian, but she is so busy discovering unexplored aspectsof herself, that she has no time to be homesick. Besides, being very high, she has found two close female friends withwhom she can discuss her problems. I am no longer her sole confidant as I was in Tiflis <strong>and</strong> St. Petersburg."He fell silent. This aspect of his remoteness from her had not previously occurred to him. Alex<strong>and</strong>ra was no longer hisone <strong>and</strong> only student. Claudia had opened new doors to her in music <strong>and</strong> Katharina the possibility of physical lovebetween women. He had not much to do with these two discoveries.<strong>Konrad</strong> toasted their Georgian friends <strong>and</strong> their reunion. He felt the wine go to his head.Joachim left to find Alex<strong>and</strong>ra.Clara put her h<strong>and</strong> on <strong>Konrad</strong>’s shoulder. "Come <strong>Konrad</strong>, may I dance with you? Everything will find a balance <strong>and</strong> with alittle effort you will keep Alex<strong>and</strong>ra."<strong>Konrad</strong> let her guide him onto the dance floor. She danced slowly, holding him close. Her warmth was good.When they returned <strong>Konrad</strong> collapsed in a chair, <strong>and</strong> Clara, sitting next to him, very gently stroked his head which hadsunk on the table.Joachim returned with Alex<strong>and</strong>ra who was concerned but not disconcerted. She knew how to h<strong>and</strong>le a drunk tamada.She bent over the collapsed shape. "<strong>Konrad</strong>, wake up its I, Alex<strong>and</strong>ra. Please take me home."<strong>Konrad</strong> raised his head, <strong>and</strong> looked at her. "Alex<strong>and</strong>ra wears a Tcherkassian dress, you are not her."Alex<strong>and</strong>ra sat down with hanging arms. "He is right. I changed costumes with our friend Katharina, who wanted so badlyto turn into an Oriental woman for one evening <strong>and</strong>, I suspect, had in mind to play a trick on <strong>Konrad</strong>. What a terriblemess."Joachim, laughing heartily, saved the embarrassing situation. "You have got the three of you into a true Georgian farce,two women, one drunk tamada, <strong>and</strong> lots of melodrama."Alex<strong>and</strong>ra removed her mask <strong>and</strong> feeling hot opened the high collar of Katharina’s blouse. "<strong>Konrad</strong>, mein Liebster, this isKatharina’s dress which she lent me. She wanted to be a Georgian woman for one night. I am Alex<strong>and</strong>ra. Please wakeup <strong>and</strong> let’s go home."This time <strong>Konrad</strong> sat up <strong>and</strong> rubbing his eyes <strong>and</strong> aching head looked at her <strong>and</strong> saw the necklace in her décolleté.He fell on his knees before her, buried his head in her lap, <strong>and</strong> sobbed frightfully. "Can you ever forgive me, Alex<strong>and</strong>ra? Iwas so unhappy without you, <strong>and</strong> now I am drunk. I love you above anything."They woke around ten next morning. <strong>Konrad</strong> went downstairs to get the newspaper. He came running up the stairs, pale<strong>and</strong> breathless. "Alex<strong>and</strong>ra, read this."He held up the front page.St. Petersburg, Monday, the 23rd of January 1905BLOODY MASSACRE.GOVERNMENT FORCES PUT DOWN PEACEFUL DEMONSTRATION.THOUSANDS FEARED DEADYesterday a group estimated at ten thous<strong>and</strong> people carrying icons <strong>and</strong> church banners marched towards the WinterPalace under the leadership of a revolutionary priest to present a petition to His Majesty the Tsar. The police beganshooting. Dead <strong>and</strong> wounded lay strewn in the snow on Dvortsovaya Square. Later the police opened fire on gatheringselsewhere in the city. The dead are still uncounted. Emperor Nicholas II is reported to have shrugged. "The godlessrabble must be put down without mercy." The country <strong>and</strong> the world are in deep shock."My God, <strong>Konrad</strong>, I should be in St. Petersburg. Can you imagine the thous<strong>and</strong>s of wounded?""No," he said dryly, "Thank God, you are here. You might have been one of the dead."They imagined the persecutions that would now follow as the government attempted to put the blame on someone otherthan the leaders <strong>and</strong> troops of the Ministry of the Interior. <strong>Konrad</strong> <strong>and</strong> Alex<strong>and</strong>ra realized that their knowledge of thepreceding events was too scanty to clearly envision what had happened <strong>and</strong> what the consequences would be. MaybeJoachim could tell more.Alex<strong>and</strong>ra, tears streaming down her face, tried to call. The hotel concierge told her that the von Bredows hadunexpectedly left by train for Berlin at seven that morning. Their luggage was still at the hotel, he was expecting themback later in the week.With the afternoon mail a note arrived from Clara. The foreign ministry had convened all their available correspondents todiscuss the situation in Russia. 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