"Was it Katharina?" she asked with a trace of anxiety in her voice."Yes," he said, "we spent a weekend together at the Kochelsee south of Munich. It was wonderful, she is such a warm,passionate woman. You have taught me many things, but I guess she is the first woman whom I seduced."No further explanation, but Alex<strong>and</strong>ra understood why this experience had left him exuberant. Curiously she felt not theslightest jealousy, only an immense joy <strong>and</strong> an entirely unexpected gratefulness towards her old friend.<strong>Konrad</strong> shook his head. "Katharina sends you her greetings. She smiled when she said that <strong>and</strong> asked me to give you akiss, <strong>and</strong> not to forget to do that. I do not underst<strong>and</strong> you women."Alex<strong>and</strong>ra stole her friend’s kiss from him. "I have been thinking of her, <strong>and</strong> I cannot wait to see her."<strong>Konrad</strong> eagerly told her of the various times he had gone out with Katharina, a visit of the Pinakothek, a premiere-concertat which Richard Strauss conducted Gustav Mahler, <strong>and</strong> once they had gone to a dance together."But you dance many times better than she does." He laughed.So, Alex<strong>and</strong>ra mused, it seems to have done us both good to explore our own ways—<strong>and</strong> he even arrived before me. Icould not have taught him what Katharina did. Now, how will I tell him of my adventures? He has no way of suspectingVladimir."Where are you taking me?" she asked."You do confuse me! Did I not tell you? I am taking you to the Varieté, a show at the Wintergarten on Friedrich-Strasse,the latest entertainment imported from Paris, modified to suit Berlin."The Wintergarten, turned out to be a glassed-in cast iron structure that had become the rage after the Paris WorldExposition. Small groups of people sat at single tables eating dinner or just drinking champagne or wine. Potted palms<strong>and</strong> banana trees gave the whole a tropical ambiance. To one side opened a stage. An orchestra played popular music.The hall, brightly lit by numerous electric ch<strong>and</strong>eliers, was filled by a noisy crowd, rousing cheers, the clinking of glasses,the occasional pop! of a champagne cork. Long-legged, skimpily dressed waitresses moved between the tables. A maîtred’, whom <strong>Konrad</strong> slipped a sizable tip, escorted them to a table close to the stage. <strong>Konrad</strong> shrugged. "Otherwise wewould be sitting way in the back."<strong>Konrad</strong> had barely placed his order when the lights dimmed <strong>and</strong> a hush went quieted the crowd. The orchestra wentsilent <strong>and</strong> an old man pushed a Leierkasten, a barrel-organ on wheels, onto the stage grinding out a sentimental populartune. The audience applauded. The filles de corps de ballet in gaudy dresses sailed on stage <strong>and</strong> danced around theorgan grinder.A fanfare. Down a passage between the dancers, caught in a bright blue spotlight, undulated a slender, no longer younglady in a tight, glittering lamé costume. Thunderous applause greeted her. In a low, husky voice she began to sing:"Ich hab’ noch einen Koffer in Berlin."Renewed applause, shouts, <strong>and</strong> whistles. The lady smiled, threw h<strong>and</strong>-kisses to the audience, <strong>and</strong> sang the next stanza:"Berlin, Berlin meine Sehnsucht ist dahin."<strong>Konrad</strong>’s eyes glazed over. After all, thought Alex<strong>and</strong>ra, he still does have a sentimental suitcase of memoriessomewhere in Berlin.Alex<strong>and</strong>ra smiled bemused <strong>and</strong> uncertain, the voice of the singer drove a shiver down her spine.To fend off this wave of alien sentimentality Alex<strong>and</strong>ra let her eyes w<strong>and</strong>er over the crowd. She found the shiny faces ofthe well-fed, middle–aged bourgeois gentlemen in their uniforms or starched shirtfronts repulsive. Their eyes were gluedto the singer with stupefied attention. This was a different crowd from the aristocrats <strong>and</strong> the intelligentsia that attendedsimilar, popular entertainment in St. Petersburg. Was this the "republican" public of the future? She was not sure that shewould like to live among these people.The waitress, dressed in a fancy, push-up dance costume, silk stockings covering her exposed legs, brought twoglasses, a bottle of French champagne, caviar on ice, <strong>and</strong> two large plates of belegte Brote, slices of bread covered withvarious cold cuts."The Russians call this butterbrot," exclaimed Alex<strong>and</strong>ra. "Mein Gott, I am lost between three cultures none of which Icould honestly swear allegiance to."Cardboard trees, a few symbolic bushes, <strong>and</strong> a park bench floated on stage followed by three monuments <strong>and</strong> a mockupof the Siegessäule in the Tierpark.Two characters w<strong>and</strong>ered through the park, one in an Austrian uniform with a lorgnon on a golden chain, the other aBerliner Bürger, slovenly dreessed in civilian clothes."Ah," cried the burgher doffing his hat at the uniformed character, "Gutentag, Graf Bobby, I am so glad I met you."Graf Bobby put the lorgnon in his eye <strong>and</strong> delightedly exclaimed with a heavy Austrian accent. "Grüß’ Gott, Ferdin<strong>and</strong>,it’s my pleasure!""Graf Bobby," said Ferdin<strong>and</strong>, "I am bewildered, every week our government puts up another monument, you are astudierter Mann, who is that over there?"He pointed at a monument everybody in the audience recognized as representing Goethe."Äh," said Graf Bobby peering through his lorgnon, "this must be the famous Austrian composer van Beethoven."Ferdin<strong>and</strong> relieved, intoned a short melody.74
"Ah, of course, of course, ‘Eine kleine Nachtmusik’’’ cried Ferdin<strong>and</strong> <strong>and</strong> hit Graf Bobby on the shoulder.A few people laughed. <strong>Konrad</strong> was puzzled. "Well, that is getting rather sophisticated."A bunch of policemen came running on stage. They encircled the two simpletons."Your papers, please!" said one of the mustachioed officers.Graf Bobby pulled out an oversized passport with the Austrian double-eagle on its cover <strong>and</strong> waved it at the policemen,while Ferdin<strong>and</strong>, who had nothing to show, swore that his name was Ferdin<strong>and</strong> Fontane <strong>and</strong> that he lived in theWedding. Under much threatening gesticulations the policemen arrested Graf Bobby as an Austrian spy, <strong>and</strong> Ferdin<strong>and</strong>as a long-wanted Socialist.Exeunt the police with their captives in h<strong>and</strong>cuffs.Now the audience was really swept up in cheers."You have to underst<strong>and</strong>, that Graf Bobby is a well-known character of many a Viennese joke <strong>and</strong> that TheodoreFontane—not Ferdin<strong>and</strong>—is a famous Berlin writer long suspected of sympathizing with the Socialists, who live in a partof Berlin called Wedding. But," he shook his head, "this triple joke is really high-brow considering this kind of audience."The organ-grinder walked across the stage <strong>and</strong> played a new tune, which was picked up by the orchestra con sordino:"Das Mädchen vom L<strong>and</strong>e," announced the program. A sweet blonde dressed in a pinafore with an innocent bow tie inher long hair accompanied by a strapping, young Lieutenant of the Guard began to sing a sentimental, tear-jerkingBerliner street ballad.Ein Mädchen kam from L<strong>and</strong>e ein jeder dachte sie sei schön.Sie rannte weg vom Dorfe, um sich Berlin mal anzusehn.Sie wurde Magd bei reichen Leuten, sie aber wollte hoch hinaus,sucht’ nur des Lebens Freuden, wollt’ nur noch Saus und Braus.Sie trug nur seidne Kleider und ging spazieren in Berlin.Ein Leutnant von der Garde nahm sie auf einen Ballund als der Ball zuende da schlief sie müde ein.Dies war ihr Pech. Der Leutnant von der Garde, der raubte ihr die Unschuld weg.Sie seufzte, schrie und war verzweifelt und wollte gleich in’s Wasser gehn.Der Fluss jedoch, der war gefrorenund keine Öffnung war zu sehn.Sie kehrte heim auf’s L<strong>and</strong>e, geschändet, dick, und nicht mehr schön.Ein Kindlein ward geboren, ganz unschuldig und süss,doch durch der Mutter Sünde, sein Vater hat es nie gesehn.During the last two stanzas, the beauty’s belly grew rapidly until the balloon under her pinafore burst with a bang. Thepair was rewarded by hilarious laughter <strong>and</strong> the popping of champagne corks.And so it went on, a juggler, a magician who pulled pigeons from a hat, a pair of children who wound themselves likesnakes around, above, <strong>and</strong> below each other, <strong>and</strong> in between the organ-grinder who played yet another sentimentaltune. A peculiar mixture of the banal, the trivial, <strong>and</strong> the sentimental, at times outright crass with biting overtones.The merry noise of the audience grew with the amount of champagne consumed.Suddenly the waitresses vanished to reappeared on stage in can-can costumes paired off by an equal number of youngmen in tuxedos <strong>and</strong> bowler hats twirling canes. The girls enthusiastically kicked their pretty legs to the fast music.Alex<strong>and</strong>ra noticed that underneath their tri-colored tout-touts they wore only the skimpiest of panties <strong>and</strong> a petit corset tohold up their stockings on florid suspenders. With raised eyebrows she whispered to <strong>Konrad</strong>. "Regarde, leurs sousvêtements!"<strong>Konrad</strong> pulled a grimace.So far the ballet had been an imitation of Paris’ Folies Bergers—but now the orchestra turned maudlin, <strong>and</strong> the newBerlin took over. In a single movement the girls let their tout-touts drop <strong>and</strong> stood there completely in the nude except fortheir panties, their black girdles <strong>and</strong> small, glued-on decorations covering their nipples.Triumphantly their partners skewered the tri-colored tout-touts, <strong>and</strong> raised them like captured French flags on theircanes.The crowd applauded thunderously.Unexpectedly the orchestra went silent, <strong>and</strong> down the middle of an alley of pretty legs <strong>and</strong> bare breasts snaked, equallynude except for a feather boa the famous singer of the first Nummer.While everybody rose clapping wildly, Alex<strong>and</strong>ra was speechless. To top it all off, the girls came down from the stage,<strong>and</strong> evading the prying h<strong>and</strong>s of male customers here <strong>and</strong> there, danced between the tables to an exit in the rear.The organ grinder w<strong>and</strong>ered across the stage for the last time, <strong>and</strong> the singer with her seductively husky voice concludedthe evening, "Auf Wiedersehn, auf wiedersehn....."The very last offering, however, was the Prussian anthem to which everyone stood <strong>and</strong> sotto voce joined the cast insinging.75
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