Alex<strong>and</strong>ra wanted to have a closer look, but Vladimir held her back. "Stay away from him, he isn’t trustworthy."Suddenly Badmaev threw a h<strong>and</strong>ful of seeds into the fakir’s brazier. Thick smoke began to fill the room, <strong>and</strong> like a visionthe face of Mme. Blavatsky appeared in the smoke.The audience guffawed, although it was obvious to Alex<strong>and</strong>ra that the image was a simple laterna magica projection.Yet, the back-<strong>and</strong>-forth wafting smoke uncannily brought her to life."Ah, cannabis asiatica! I can smell it," whispered Alex<strong>and</strong>ra wrinkling her nose. A minute later she nervously pulledVladimir by the arm <strong>and</strong> with an urgent voice said, "Please let’s get out of here, fast."Hoarse <strong>and</strong> highly alarmed she repeated, "Let’s go, quick! Some grave danger is approaching."Wordlessly Vladimir like a cat, deliberately slow <strong>and</strong> cautious, taking her arm, walked her toward the door, trailed by theworried Sisakians."The lady is unwell," Vladimir said to the servant who held the door open. "Thank you, I shall take her outside myself."Working with great circumspection Vladimir found his car <strong>and</strong> waved to the chauffeur to pull up. They all piled in."Go Fyodor! We have to get out of here as fast you can.""What is it Alex<strong>and</strong>ra?" asked Izabel in confusion."I had a sudden premonition. We have a rule in our family to fear nothing, but act fast when a premonition warns us."The shock wave of a massive explosion coming from the house interrupted her. The car rocked frighteningly.Vladimir let go of a string of obscenities. "Go Fyodor, get us out of here before the police arrive. I must not be found inthis place!"Fyodor revved the engine <strong>and</strong> began pulling out into the street. Screaming people came pouring out of the palais, theelectric lights went out. They had reached the street.Marti began to shout. "My paintings! Two years of work, my paintings! Let me out!"Fyodor stopped the car <strong>and</strong> Marti <strong>and</strong> Izabel jumped out. Vladimir <strong>and</strong> Alex<strong>and</strong>ra saw them running towards the smokingbuilding as Fyodor shifted into high gear <strong>and</strong> scattering the crowds of the curious running towards the place of disaster,they sped to safety."Explosion at Volkonsky Palais—Indian fakir killed, scores wounded" screamed the headlines next morning. The paperblamed the Indian <strong>and</strong> Badmaev for setting up the explosion. The Theosophists were nowhere mentioned. The palaishad suffered extensive damage. An investigation of the causes was under way.Alex<strong>and</strong>ra was anxiously waiting for news from the Sisakians. She had no clue how to find them <strong>and</strong> was much relievedwhen Izabel <strong>and</strong> Marti stood before her door late that night."We saved the paintings!" cried Marti. "Here is the painting from Shakh-i-Zabz which you liked so much." He presentedher with long roll wrapped in newspaper. "Take it as our thanks for saving our lives."Izabel hugged Alex<strong>and</strong>ra. "Thank you! You have a sense which rivals Mme. Blavatsky, you would make a perfectTheosophist!"Alex<strong>and</strong>ra unwrapped the painting. It still fascinated her in an undefinable way. She thanked Marti, but he could ill affordto make her such a present. Had he been a Georgian, offering him money would have deeply offended him. But anArmenian had other feelings in such matters. She would have to give this some thought.Alex<strong>and</strong>ra proposed to prepare something to eat for them, <strong>and</strong> they moved into the kitchen."This was a narrow escape," began Marti. "The bomb exploded somewhere in the kitchen behind the wall where the yogiwas stirring his brazier. The whole wall collapsed <strong>and</strong> buried him. People further away were spared, but Badmaev <strong>and</strong>the women who were crowding around him are all in the hospital. What a vicious way to demonstrate the government’sdispleasure with the Theosophists!""The paper blamed the Indian <strong>and</strong> Badmaev for having caused the explosion," remarked Alex<strong>and</strong>ra.Marti’s dark eyes became furious. "You don’t believe that story, do you? Of course, they would print such a calumny, theman is dead <strong>and</strong> cannot prove them wrong. Don’t be naïve! It was a bomb planted by you know who. "He made an obscene gesture. "And the mess when the police arrived! They came an hour late, <strong>and</strong> all they did wasconfiscate some literature <strong>and</strong> arrest some harmless people. Because of my ‘getup’ they held me for two hours untilsome influential person released me on his recognizance. Thank God, we had carried all my paintings to the house offriends before the police arrived, they would have confiscated those too."He had talked himself into a real heat. He swore <strong>and</strong> rowed with his arms. "We should have stayed in Central Asia,where life is easier than here. And I tell you, the capital is going to explode any time <strong>and</strong> one more such experience, <strong>and</strong>I will join the revolutionaries in the streets!"Alex<strong>and</strong>ra shook her head. "You should be careful of what you say, Marti. This apartment is safe, but you can never tellwho is listening in these days. There are many people, especially at the university, who think like you do. Sometimes Ifeel like you. I too would join the revolution <strong>and</strong> get into trouble—ah, well, maybe it is providence that I leave for Munichin two weeks."Glowering, Marti raised his fist <strong>and</strong> through clenched teeth cursed the Tsar, his government, <strong>and</strong> the Okhrana."Let us postpone our political discussion for a walk in the woods," suggested Alex<strong>and</strong>ra, "tell me instead about your70
interest in Theosophy."Marti shrugged. "You know that this subject is as dangerous to discuss as any other ‘subversive’ activity, don’t you? Thatterrible henchman, Plehve, who runs the Internal Security, would like to arrest all Theosophists just as he would like toimprison all Socialists.""But how did those expensive English books of Blavatsky get there, which were for sale last night?" asked Alex<strong>and</strong>ra."Smuggled by bribing, of course. Volkonsky is not a Theosophist, but he is a capitalist sympathizer who bribed theofficials. You know, nothing is impossible for someone who has money <strong>and</strong> the right connections. Only we poor devilswould get persecuted."Alex<strong>and</strong>ra looked questioningly at Marti. He was underst<strong>and</strong>ably upset by the events of last night, but his voice had anaggressive edge, which sounded like the slogans of the extreme left, whom she detested as dangerous fools <strong>and</strong> withwhom she had found rational discussions of political matters strictly impossible.Alex<strong>and</strong>ra shook her head. She was ready to attack Marti, to draw him out <strong>and</strong> expose the folly of his views, but toldherself to remain calm <strong>and</strong> resist this temptation.Fortunately, Izabel said. "It was I who was fascinated by Blavatsky. You would find her writings interesting too, she had asharp mind <strong>and</strong> exciting insights. The Theosophists are muddled <strong>and</strong> gullible. They are taken in by her ‘occult magic’ <strong>and</strong>forget the sharp visions she had."Alex<strong>and</strong>ra tried to steer Marti to the question of the relationship between his pictures <strong>and</strong> Theosophy. "And you, Marti?Tell me, why are you as a painter interested in Theosophy? I searched your paintings unsuccessfully for an answer tothis question."They sat down <strong>and</strong> Alex<strong>and</strong>ra put the supper on the table. She gave Marti a bottle of wine to uncork. They drank to theirreunion. Marti had calmed down. "We have been interested in Theosophy for the same reason that so many Russiansare. Aren’t we all searching for a new spirituality? The church no longer fills this void."He looked at Izabel for approval <strong>and</strong> continued. "Unfortunately our long journey has taught me that Blavatsky is acharlatan, <strong>and</strong> the Theosophists are gullible. You see, this trip was paid for by the Theosophical Society. We weresupposed to interview people who had known Mme. Blavatsky, take pictures, <strong>and</strong> paint the places she had visited on hermany travels."He turned to Alex<strong>and</strong>ra. "We had an interesting interview with your cousin Graf Witte. He was the only person who hadsome concrete information on Blavatsky."Alex<strong>and</strong>ra nodded. "I had never seen him in person until yesterday, but my mother knew him in Tiflis when she was achild."Marti made a dismissive gesture with his h<strong>and</strong>. "Witte laughed about the fantasies of Blavatsky. He maintained that shehad copied her mystical writings from the occult books in their common gr<strong>and</strong>father’s library in Tiflis. We cannot mentionthis story to the Theosophists, they believe H.P.B. got her wisdom from her Indian Masters by telepathy. We found thatH.P.B. had never been to Central Asia nor in Tibet as she claimed. And the secret letters from her Indian Masters werefabricated by herself."He poured down a glass of wine <strong>and</strong> asked for a refill. "Ah, we have to destroy all religious superstition in Russia <strong>and</strong> getrid of our mystics. They are a disgrace to our intelligence in the twentieth century!"His disturbing slogans again! Had Marti in his frustrated search for spirituality turned to the radical Socialists? "So, youcame back as disenchanted Theosophists!""I never was an enchanted Theosophist. Izabel was taken in by H.P.B. Call me an opportunist if you wish, the offer of thatjourney to Central Asia was too great a temptation to resist. We would never have been able to afford such a trip, <strong>and</strong>you saw yourself what it did to my painting."Alex<strong>and</strong>ra looked at the picture from Shakh-i-Zabz, which was leaning against the wall, <strong>and</strong> to her surprise the ruins ofthe ivan changed. They had appeared to her like teeth yesterday, <strong>and</strong> now they looked like two praying h<strong>and</strong>s in thefaded green sky. The turquoise square with its Kufic writing appeared like an amulet on the wrist of one of the h<strong>and</strong>s."When I look at your painting, I now see things which I had not seen yesterday. The ivan appears like two praying h<strong>and</strong>s.Why is the sky green, <strong>and</strong> what is that strange square?"Marti smiled with satisfaction. "Shakh-i-Zabz is a place of pilgrimage for the Islamic Sufi, that is why the sky is green: thecolor of the Prophet. And the square is a Bustrahedron, a magical square in which one can read ‘Allah is Great’ in alldirections. Maybe the two stumps are two praying h<strong>and</strong>s, maybe they are two dancing Sufi, or the melody of two neysexpressed in stone? You have to decide that for yourself."Alex<strong>and</strong>ra listened intrigued. She had finally touched the deep feelings that lay hidden below his political slogans.Marti began to warm to his subject. "All that this has in common with Theosophy is that Blavatsky’s ideas have a certainSufi content, <strong>and</strong> the Sufi originated in Samark<strong>and</strong>. But you can find similar ideas also among the Sufi in Georgia. In mypaintings I search for the hidden symbols, which lie behind the spiritual movements of our day. Long denied byChristianity, Sufism is one such source."A softer glow had come to Marti’s eyes. "Do you remember our visit to Becky’s house? Since that day Gauguin has beenmy teacher, he knows so much more about the symbolism of colors <strong>and</strong> forms than our Symbolists. Do you see the71
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