Konrad and Alexandra (PDF) - Rolf Gross

Claudia stood on the side and with serious eyes wistfully watched the exultant family scene until Alexandra took her intoher arms, hiding her own tears.Konrad turned to them "How is your medical practice doing?"Claudia’s eyes lit up. "Alexandra is performing miracles. Had I not seen her myself I would not believe it. She cured thesevere arthritic swellings of an old man."Konrad looked at his wife, who smiled quietly. He could see how happy she was to have him back."Konrad," Claudia said, "my father is inviting Alexandra to come to Munich to help us write a paper on the psychologicalaspects of healing."Konrad sat up straight and shook his head. "Your father is interested in psychics?"Claudia glanced at Alexandra, begging for her help. "Ever since father’s visit to the sema with you he has puzzled overthese phenomena. Now I have witnessed Alexandra at work. Her results are fantastic, and she can explain what she isdoing better than anyone father and I have seen. Would you let her go? Please!"Konrad promised to think about it. He knew, of course, that Alexandra would do exactly as she saw fit, and that he wouldlet her travel.Later that night, alone with him, Alexandra told Konrad of her abortive attempt to search for him in China.Bewildered he took her into his arms and held her tight. "Dear woman, I vaguely sensed that you were in great danger,but could not guess what it was. I tried unsuccessfully to call you. I am relieved that Claudia watched over you."A few days later Alexandra and Helena came home highly elated. Alexandra had healed another patient, a woman withskin cancer, a small cancerous growth on the neck. Within the twenty minutes of her healing engagement, the growthhad simply melted down. Only a small remnant was left. This time Alexandra shook her head in disbelief, whilst Helenawas almost ecstatic. How was this possible? Even modern radiation treatment could not have removed that growth in soshort a time.Helena made an inviting gesture with her hand. "I should learn this method, there are so many cases, which, if we arehonest, are in effect intractable. First arthritis and now cancer!""But look Helena, my healings are only successful in one out of two or three cases. Most often nothing happens. Againlet us celebrate in a couple of months when I will know for sure that the remission is permanent. Nobody is cured ofcancer until he has been free of it for several years."This provoked another heated discussion on healing. Niko played the hardened skeptic. Faced with the incontrovertiblemedical facts that these two sober women reported, Konrad did not join him and asked, "What do you actually do?"She described how she sat in the corner, the patient reading in a chair. He was not actively involved in the healingprocess. As soon as she had conquered her mind, she concentrated all her energies on the patient.She stared into space. "I cannot describe this process well. I leave my physical body behind, it just sits there, and withpart of my ‘soul’ I ‘fly’ into this embrace. I get completely lost in the person and become one with him."She waved her hand. "That is all I can describe to you. I cannot explain how it works, I can give you only a general‘medical’ theory of what goes on in the patient."I think what happens is that I mobilize the patient’s immune system. The patient heals himself. Why the immune systemshould have been paralyzed before I cannot say. But I have the suspicion that in the cases which I have been able tocure, the patient has been suffering from a difficult psychological trauma or has problems in his family. In any case, laterthe euphoric patients invariably tell me of tormenting events that they feel are related to the illness. I will start asking mypatients questions. Maybe I will learn why I am successful in some and not in other cases."Konrad had listened with great concentration, chin in hand. "Do you think you could teach this to others, say to Helena?"Alexandra stared at him and then said animatedly. "I have been looking for a way to experimentally prove my theory.Your suggestion would be an excellent test of my understanding."Claudia objected. "I have not been able to learn to heal or to fly, although I have been involved with you or watched youwork several times. Alexandra, you were born with this talent. I am awed by your healing. I am even scared by it. As wehave both found out since Adishi, it is dangerous to let one’s shadow-soul fly out of body. Look, Alexandra, you had thisspontaneous experience when Otto was born, which took away your fears and makes it possible for you to experiment atthe edge of death in ways that scare me. You cannot expect this fearlessness in others. I don’t think you could or shouldteach your method to others.""You have only to lose your fear of death!" mumbled Alexandra.Niko pulled a face. "Lexako, you are presumptuous.""No, not at all!"But Alexandra knew that she could not explain her approach in the presence of everybody."Konrad, will you let me go to Munich for three weeks next year?"Konrad smiled. She had landed not particularly elegantly or heroically, and stood on solid ground again."I know that I cannot keep you back, München is too much of a temptation for you. Maybe it will do you good to have todefend your effusive feelings of success in presence of your skeptical friend Dahl. We are no match for you any longer—do go!"178