fail to grasp."Alex<strong>and</strong>ra smiled at him. "The nature of the subject makes it impossible to describe it in psychological terms, but I couldtry to use my own experience <strong>and</strong> the Greek myths to give you an idea."Dahl nodded. She gave him a beguiling smile. "You have to underst<strong>and</strong>, we don’t talk about this 'women’s knowledge.That is one reason why men—who have to talk <strong>and</strong> to create myths <strong>and</strong> religions to explain the world—have such limitedunderst<strong>and</strong>ing of what a woman knows. The secrets of women are h<strong>and</strong>ed down from mother to daughter. They areways of dealing with the world, with death, love, <strong>and</strong> childbirth, <strong>and</strong> with the ignorance of men. And even between mother<strong>and</strong> daughter these things are not discussed in words. They are learned by doing. They constitute the ultimate, esotericknowledge."Dahl smiled. "As always, you have succeeded in disarming me. Ab initio you essentially dispose of any analysis I couldoffer!" He laughed. "I admit to being seduced <strong>and</strong> all yours!"Alex<strong>and</strong>ra gracefully inclined her head accepting his surrender <strong>and</strong> went straight to the heart of the matter. "Youremember, in München I once told you the story of Dato <strong>and</strong> my abduction. I did not tell you, that afterwards I went to seePersephone for advice. It was a horrifying experience. In a half-drunk trance she accused me of having spared Dato. Bythe old ‘matriarchal’ rules, she said, I would have had to seduce <strong>and</strong> kill him in my arms at the height of his ecstasy. Nowhe would have to live a miserable life, the weak man, <strong>and</strong> one day he would come back to dem<strong>and</strong> his death from me."She paused a moment. "These are the ancient laws of matriarchy…. Persephone’s prophesy is still unfulfilled. So farDato has not returned."Dahl glanced at her with an incredulous smile but said nothing.Alex<strong>and</strong>ra, registering his surprise, continued thoughtfully. "I was shocked. On that day I decided to marry <strong>Konrad</strong>, tofollow him into exile <strong>and</strong> learn how to become conscious of my own actions in order to come back to Georgia <strong>and</strong> helpother women to escape from these millennia-old ways. But I am sure Persephone will be proven right. Dato will returnone day with such a request. I am terrified by the thought, but Georgian men go crazy or commit suicide when they haveto live in exile, separated from their women."She briefly considered the efficacy of the old myths. "Do you recall the Greek myth of Medea? She was a Georgianwoman <strong>and</strong> the priestess of the Great Goddess in the Kolkhis. Her story is a good illustration of the rules of matriarchy.She did not seduce but compromised Jason by stealing the Golden Fleece from her brothers. She obliged him to takeher home as his wife. When Jason later left her for a woman of his own tribe, she did not kill him or herself, but thechildren she had borne him."Dahl nodded. "I am familiar with this archaic tale. You are not the only one who is using it to illuminate our subconscious.But to my knowledge, nobody has seen Medea as an exponent of matriarchy. Her pedicide already shocked the Greeks.It is still unexplained."Encouraged, Alex<strong>and</strong>ra boldly applied the myth to the present. "In less dramatic ways this is how Georgian women stilltake revenge on their men. They don’t lay a h<strong>and</strong> on them, they make their men feel so ashamed <strong>and</strong> guilty that they killthemselves or go stark raving mad."Dahl caught on. He raised his h<strong>and</strong>. "Alex<strong>and</strong>ra, may I contribute to your myths? The Greek example is the Oresteia.There the matriarchal content is quite explicit. Orestes murdered his mother Klytemnestra. To avenge this matricide, theErynnies, the executioners for the Goddess, pursued Orestes all over Greece, until he went mad.""Yes," said Alex<strong>and</strong>ra. "And a thous<strong>and</strong> years later Sophocles, the New Greek, undertook to recast the old matriarchallaw to suit patriarchal logic. Sophocles’ Athene, the Goddess not born of woman, absolved Orestes of his crime beforethe court of the elders of Athens—I owe this insight to <strong>Konrad</strong>’s excellent familiarity with the Greek drama."She smiled at <strong>Konrad</strong>. "The Georgians, unlike the Greeks, were never conquered by Indo-Europeans. They still speaktheir six thous<strong>and</strong>-year-old language, <strong>and</strong> below the surface the age-old ways of the women are much alive. What youperceive as patriarchal customs in Georgian society today is a very thin veneer covering the unutterable ruminations ofthe Goddess.""And the men?" asked Mrs. Dahl. "What are the men like who suffer this kind of maternal rule?"Alex<strong>and</strong>ra burst out laughing. "We like our men to be chivalrous, quiet, romantic poets, with a sense for the tragic." Sheshot <strong>Konrad</strong> a loving glance.All eyes turned on <strong>Konrad</strong>."<strong>Konrad</strong>," asked Vladimir, "how do you manage to live with this Georgian Priestess of the Great Goddess?"<strong>Konrad</strong> smiled roguishly. "Does she frighten you? I don’t have that impression."Alex<strong>and</strong>ra waved their words aside with her h<strong>and</strong> <strong>and</strong> laughed her father’s laugh. "<strong>Konrad</strong> appeared like Apollo in my life.He slew the Sacred Snake <strong>and</strong> rescued me from the chthonic powers of the Goddess. Since then a dark shadowattaches to his innocence. He has become the protector <strong>and</strong> spirit of the Delphic Oracle. The revenge of the Goddess isunfathomable!"They all laughed with her, only Dahl said with a serious face. "These powers are no laughing matter. There is a newschool of psychiatry, gathering around one of Freud’s students. His name is Carl Gustav Jung. He has set out to describethe images of man’s subconscious by way of what he calls ‘archetypes.’ They are exactly what you describe, <strong>and</strong> they142
are suitably ambiguous."45.The Dadiani Castle in Zugdidi1907Ten years later, when he faced the guns of his pursuers, Vladimir would see the scene in hallucinatory clarity: a large,dark room with a beamed ceiling, lead-trimmed stained-glass in four arched, gothic windows through which the afternoonsun painted red, blue, <strong>and</strong> green puddles of color on the floor, heavy Burgundian furniture, a fireplace big enough to roasta calf in, the coat of arms of the Dadiani above its ledge.Across this gloomy stage a young woman of Alex<strong>and</strong>ra’s age <strong>and</strong> build in a dusty riding outfit walked towards him. Tall,proud, with disheveled, dark hair <strong>and</strong> the blazing, blue eyes of the mountain people. He was spellbound <strong>and</strong> so confusedthat he invuluntarily held on to a chair.Tamara Dadeshkeliani had ridden two days from Svaneti to meet <strong>and</strong> guide them to her father’s place in the mountains.Tamara was not given to many words. George Dadiani, who next to her looked stunted with his thin, reddish hair,introduced her to his guests. Barely polite she shook h<strong>and</strong>s. Vladimir stuttered when he was introduced <strong>and</strong> barelymanaged to awkwardly kiss her h<strong>and</strong>.Alex<strong>and</strong>ra watched their encounter with mixed sensations. Poor Vladimir is finished, she concluded, all his worldlyaplomb has deserted him. She had heard of her younger cousin, but had never met her. Alex<strong>and</strong>ra’s Dadianigr<strong>and</strong>mother had been a Dadeshkeliani <strong>and</strong> her father’s good looks were hers. Gr<strong>and</strong>mother Dadiani had died early,Gr<strong>and</strong>father had remarried, a petite woman with flaming red hair, who had been the rage of Tiflis. God knows from whichRussian Jewess she had inherited her foreign looks. All her children had her blond hair <strong>and</strong> build. Cousin Tamara wasthe first fresh wind in the house.Alex<strong>and</strong>ra had not visited Zugdidi since she was six. In the interim George had enlarged the house <strong>and</strong> redesigned it inthe neo-gothic style: twenty-six rooms with a number of attached bathrooms, a huge dining hall, a chapel, Gothic arches,heavy oak portals, turrets <strong>and</strong> towers, a display of the riches George had reaped from his tea plantations. By comparisonto this chateau the comfortable houses of the Chavchavadze were quaint. But, she reminded herself, her father’s <strong>and</strong> herown easy life was provided for by George’s business talent.The neat, parallel rows of the dark-green tea bushes combed the low, rolling hills at the foot of the mountains for miles.Peasant women with big baskets w<strong>and</strong>ered through the plantations picking the top leaves. Their voices, <strong>and</strong> the rustlingof the bushes filled the air.Two rainy seasons <strong>and</strong> plenty of fog during the rest of the year had proven favorable for tea growing. The high mountainskept the cold wind from the Russian steppes at bay <strong>and</strong> the Black Sea held the temperature constant. It rarely froze inwinter. George had engaged a Chinese tea master, had exp<strong>and</strong>ed the tea acreage every year, <strong>and</strong> had built a teaprocessing plant in Zugdidi. But the quality of the final product was inferior to tea imported from China, not to mentionIndian or Ceylonese teas, which were grown in a warmer climate <strong>and</strong> at considerably higher elevation.<strong>Konrad</strong> <strong>and</strong> Uncle George had established such a good rapport, that George offered him a trip to China. He wanted tostudy Chinese tea processing with the help of his Chinese tea specialist. The trip would take three months. They wouldgo by way of the new Transsiberian railway <strong>and</strong> return by steamer from Shanghai through the Suez Canal. All expenseswould be paid.<strong>Konrad</strong> was speechless. He accepted the offer without discussing it first with Alex<strong>and</strong>ra, <strong>and</strong> suggested that he wouldlearn some Chinese <strong>and</strong> study China’s history <strong>and</strong> geography. Alex<strong>and</strong>ra smiled, she would be condemned to be a strawwidow for a long time!Alex<strong>and</strong>ra grew bored in Zugdidi. If she had not brought the Benz, which impressed Uncle George immensely, she wouldhave taken a horse <strong>and</strong> eloped.Otto disappeared among the many children of the house. He went riding with his cousins, learned to climb trees <strong>and</strong> toswim in the millpond on the property, chased rabbits in the tea plantations <strong>and</strong> went fishing in the clear brooks comingfrom the mountains. In the evening he fell dead-tired into bed. Blissfully happy, he had finally found his castle. Alex<strong>and</strong>racould leave him in Zugdidi for the length of their expedition to Svaneti without a second thought. She knew little Sophia inElisabeth’s loving care in Tiflis.On the day of the Dahls departure Alex<strong>and</strong>ra drove them to Batumi to see them off <strong>and</strong> to say good-bye to the Bredows.Unexpectedly cordial, Dahl embraced Alex<strong>and</strong>ra <strong>and</strong> kissed her.143
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