purpose, <strong>and</strong> Cyrene became so rich from its export that the Cyrenian coins carried an image of the plant. Attempts toplant the fennel in other places failed. By the first century AD the dem<strong>and</strong> had risen so steeply that silphion, orlaserpicium to the Romans, was exported by the shipload. The plant was over-harvested <strong>and</strong> during one extended dryspell became extinct.He finished his tale with a dirty laugh. "A great tragedy for the expensive courtesans of Rome. Silphion had to bereplaced by the inferior ferula asafoetida in the brothels of Europe.""Alex<strong>and</strong>ra, are you a typical Georgian woman?" asked Claudia out of the blue while copying some text. "What isGeorgia like?""Oh, my dear Claudia, both of these questions cannot be answered. I always thought that I am an atypical Georgianwoman. However, the longer I am living among non-Georgians the more I become aware of how Georgian I am. Next toKatharina I look very Georgian, my dark, depressive moods are very Georgian, as are my sudden outbursts of temper.Georgia is an old culture <strong>and</strong> its women are its oldest creatures. Niko <strong>and</strong> I have been brought up in a westernizedfamily, we speak four languages <strong>and</strong> feel more at home in Germany, Italy, or France than in Russia…superficially atleast. But now I know that we will always be homesick, for what, I still don’t really know. Your mother asked me thatquestion, <strong>and</strong> I have spent a lot of time thinking about it. Our men are terribly prone to that malaise—in case you want toknow—they pine for the Georgian woman, but what my homesickness is made of I cannot say.""You guessed right, I am thinking about Niko <strong>and</strong> myself."She carefully wrote a word in Greek, then started a new one. "Would you consider me capable of being a good wife forNiko, to be able to hold his ‘homesickness’ at bay? Could I be a Georgian wife to him?"She had finished her list of words. "Look, the Greeks have so many words <strong>and</strong> we have only one, if I could put them alltogether would that be enough for him?" She showed Alex<strong>and</strong>ra her paper:agape + eros + gamos + latreia + kharis = LoveAlex<strong>and</strong>ra was moved. "Dear, serious Claudia, for a while you will need large quantities of the last kind of love for him, hedoes not know what love is, you will have to teach him. He needs to underst<strong>and</strong> himself first as I had to <strong>and</strong> still have to.But he has always looked for non-Georgian girls <strong>and</strong> maybe his attachment to our old, female ways is not as great asmine was, besides you have many things in common with Georgian women, much more so than, for example, Katharina.You know the age-old tragic side of life, how that is possible, I cannot say."Claudia suddenly very formal, straightened up. "Oh, because father comes from an old rabbinical family, I think that is thereason." She relaxed <strong>and</strong> looked at Alex<strong>and</strong>ra. "Tell me, should I marry Niko?"Alex<strong>and</strong>ra hugged her. "Yes," she said simply <strong>and</strong> kissed her friend.With <strong>Konrad</strong>’s help they wrote a paper comparing Soranus’ <strong>and</strong> Dioskorides’ lists of contraceptive plants with thoseAlex<strong>and</strong>ra had collected in Georgia, showing that this knowledge had survived, having been h<strong>and</strong>ed down by women, fortwo thous<strong>and</strong> years. They ended their investigation with a plea for careful medical research to identify the activeingredients of these plants, test their effectiveness as well as their side effects, <strong>and</strong> make them available to the women ofthe twentieth century.As <strong>Konrad</strong> had predicted, the paper was rejected by three journals with the explanation that this work was violating theHippocratic Oath—<strong>and</strong> existing law.“A Comparison of Contraceptive Plants in Dioskorides <strong>and</strong> Soranus with Special Reference to Georgian Folk Medicine,“by C. Dahl-Dadiani, A. Dadiani-Rost, <strong>and</strong> K. Rost, appeared twenty years later, in the Annals of the Academy ofSciences of the Georgian SSR.26.Katharina's pilgrimage to Andechs1904The Föhn brushed over Munich, drawing lightning sparks from the charged bed covers <strong>and</strong> leaving behind frayed nerves<strong>and</strong> a few wispy clouds high in an electric-blue sky.After a restless night, Alex<strong>and</strong>ra had woken <strong>Konrad</strong> at seven from a last drugged sleep with the cry, "<strong>Konrad</strong>, come here,I can see the Caucasus on the horizon!"Half-awake he had staggered onto the balcony <strong>and</strong> rubbed his disbelieving eyes. The entire chain of the Alps hovered,unreal, magnified by the crazy air, over the roofs <strong>and</strong> spires of the city."Look, Liebster, there is Kazbeg <strong>and</strong> here are Tebulos <strong>and</strong> Diklos Mta <strong>and</strong> the mountains of Tusheti. It is uncanny, so88
close!"She had hugged him, tears running down her cheeks. "My head is humming like a beehive, it’s the jojokhetis kari. Iremember it so well, everybody would go crazy in Tiflis on days like this."She had put her head under the cold water <strong>and</strong> swallowed two aspirins before breakfast. It was the day of Katharina’spilgrimage to Andechs. Katharina had not forgotten her wish to take them all to her beloved church, <strong>and</strong> with Alex<strong>and</strong>ra’shelp had finally succeeded in persuading the skeptics among them. In the last minute Claudia had brought her olderbrother Friedrich along, to balance the tensions, as she quietly told Alex<strong>and</strong>ra with a smile of complicity.Friedrich was a good looking man, twenty-eight, with dark hair, a conspicuous nose in a haggard face, a strong Adam’sapple, <strong>and</strong> long eyelashes. To elude his father’s <strong>and</strong> gr<strong>and</strong>father’s medical profession he was finishing a doctorate inmathematics. His fast mind <strong>and</strong> sarcastic comments had made immediate friends of Friedrich <strong>and</strong> <strong>Konrad</strong>. Katharina hadsuddenly acquired two admirers.The only one unaffected by the Föhn seemed to be Katharina. Followed by the men she briskly walked towards the hillsabove Herrsching where they had got off the early morning train. Claudia <strong>and</strong> Alex<strong>and</strong>ra lagged behind.As they walked through the gardens that climb the steep hill behind the village a view over the Ammersee opened up.Sailboats were crossing the blue water <strong>and</strong> the meadows on the opposite shore were dotted with small villages <strong>and</strong>farms crowned by the church of Diessen—behind which the chain of the high mountains rose very close.Alex<strong>and</strong>ra, a trace of her morning nostalgia still clouding her mind, looked wistfully at this countryside. "Claudia, you onceasked me what Georgia is like. In places it is like this. We don’t have such big lakes, but these meadows, villages, <strong>and</strong>woods, <strong>and</strong> of course the mountains remind me so much of Georgia. Even the sun is comparably hot today, <strong>and</strong> we dohave Föhn!"Everyone was glad when they reached the woods, the moisture of the rains of the past week still hung in the trees <strong>and</strong>provided cool relief from the dry wind. The hill had been steep. "How far is it?" asked Friedrich, <strong>and</strong> Katharina laughed athim. "Another hour, but this is a pilgrimage, you should suffer a little to make it worthwhile."Niko fell behind <strong>and</strong> joined Claudia <strong>and</strong> his sister."You seemed very anxious to join Katharina in this semi-religious outing," Claudia asked Alex<strong>and</strong>ra with her cool darkeyes. "Are you religious?"Alex<strong>and</strong>ra laughed about the famous, German question. "’Heinrich, wie hältst Du’s mit der Religion?’ said <strong>Konrad</strong> when Iasked him that question six years ago. No, not particularly. I was baptized, raised, <strong>and</strong> married in the Orthodox Church,but as you know I have rather liberal views."After a thoughtful pause she added. "A few weeks ago, in my distress, I walked into the little church of St. Anna-im-Lehel<strong>and</strong> found solace in its unexpected, quiet beauty. I am still trying to find happiness <strong>and</strong> delivery from the hurts I inflict onmy friends. Maybe Katharina’s church is beautiful too."Pensive, Claudia walked for a while in silence. "You see," she began, "my father is a declared atheist. Mother, whocomes from a good Catholic family, has given up practicing her religion not to embarras him, but I know that shesometimes secretly visits her favorite church, the Asamkirche in the Sendlinger-Strasse. What she does there I don’tknow, she never took any of us children along. I sneaked in there one day, it is a dark place, overburdened with heavilygilded Baroque stucco, not very cheerful. My Gemüt, the dark side of my soul, as you once called it, often longs for someindefinable religious experience, but I don’t know what to do about that longing. I have never visited Andechs. It isfamous, the ‘Holy Mountain of Bavaria’. I am apprehensive about today's encounter with the unknown."Niko, without a word, put his arm around her.Katharina was waiting in a meadow at the edge of the woods. A smell of fresh hay drifted towards them with the windfrom the south. The farmer had just cut the grass, <strong>and</strong> he <strong>and</strong> his wife were turning the hay.Katharina, <strong>Konrad</strong>, <strong>and</strong> Friedrich seemed to have discussed the same subject. Friedrich, with a guilty glance at his sister,was still teasing Katharina.Katharina, unruffled, declared with finality, "Look Friedrich, let’s bury this subject. I am not a theologian, to me religion ispart of my inheritance. I may be naïve, but I am neither a bigot nor a fanatic. If you need to, consider this excursion a‘pilgrimage’ only for me, enjoy yourself on its other aspects. Leave me alone with your sophistries. This meadow is theplace to have a rest <strong>and</strong> eat something."She laid out a tablecloth in the shade of a lone oak <strong>and</strong> everyone shared their provisions.Alex<strong>and</strong>ra stretched out in the grass next to Katharina. "Ah, a day like in Georgia, good company, the smell of fresh hay,a picnic. I have not enjoyed that pleasure for years. Thank you for taking us here."Afterwards Katharina ran barefoot, as she was, into the meadow <strong>and</strong> humming to herself began to dance. Friedrich wasall eyes."Couldn’t you sing or make some music!" she called to him.Niko pulled a Hohner mouth-organ from his pocket, <strong>and</strong> played a fast dance melody. His sister, surprised by his facilitywith the harmonica, said something in Georgian, whereupon he changed the tune <strong>and</strong> played a lilting Georgian dancemelody. Alex<strong>and</strong>ra, using a lunch pail, began drumming the beat. "Let’s all dance," she threw the drum to Friedrich, "youheard me, figure out the rhythm!"89
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