towards the viewer: The elongated oval of her face, her penetrating blue eyes, the aristocratic nose of the Dadiani, thesharp lines of her eyebrows, her dark hair. A masterful extension of the portrait in my father’s study to the full sensualelegance of her body. The sign said, Nude reclining on her left side, 1911, Private CollectionDoubts rose in my mind. Were those subtly modeled, full thighs, her narrow, elegant ankles, this très-solide, yet wellproportioned derrière, were her full back <strong>and</strong> the voluptuous creases emanating from the inscrutable shadows betweenher legs, were they truly Alex<strong>and</strong>ra’s or a predilection of the artist? I went back to the other nudes on exhibition, frontalviews of several very different women: splayed on his bed, seated in a red easychair, modestly covering one breast witha silk scarf to make the other st<strong>and</strong> out more stunningly, or in the apathetic, spent pose after making love.None of them had the subtleties of the Nude reclining on her left side, nor did they have the elegance <strong>and</strong> imperiousbeauty of Alex<strong>and</strong>ra, her proud, contemptuous face <strong>and</strong> the skepsis of her look.How <strong>and</strong> when had she been in Paris? Considering the compromising pose it seemed difficult to imagine that <strong>Konrad</strong>had been accompanied her. She must have been traveling with one of her female friends. It could not have beenTamara, she was pregnant, Helena? No! Izabel <strong>and</strong> Marti were the only people who knew the painter colony in Paris. Butthey had been missing for five years.I called my old father that night, <strong>and</strong> to approach the touchy question of Alex<strong>and</strong>ra in the nude on Modigliani's bed, Icautiously inquired after the whereabouts of the Sisakians in 1911."Marti vanished in Baku <strong>and</strong> Izabel appeared one night in St. Petersburg," said the tired voice on the other end. "Myparents had a dramatic reunion with her. Later Izabel was pursued by the Okhrana <strong>and</strong> fled to Paris. It must have been1911. Why, you didn’t come across Izabel’s tracks in Paris?"Now I was sure of my construction."No, but I ran into a trace of Alex<strong>and</strong>ra’s. Did she ever visit Izabel in Paris?"There was silence at the other end of the line. Then he said with a weary voice, "Mother traveled much in those years,leaving us in Elisabeth’s care. She may have been to Paris before <strong>Konrad</strong>s’s trip to China. What ‘traces’ of her did youdiscover?""A painting by Modigliani, which beyond doubt shows Alex<strong>and</strong>ra."I waited for a sound of recognition from him that could spare me a further description. But father had never heard of apainting of his mother except the one in his possession."It’s a fabulous painting, Alex<strong>and</strong>ra in the nude. More than I would ever have been allowed to see, had I been fortunateenough to meet this fascinating woman."I should have kept my mouth shut, but I had to share this discovery with somebody.With a dangerously sharp voice my father began to shout into the phone. "This part of her life is none of your business.All you want to know is, what was her sex life like? I have never seen or heard of a painting of my mother in the nude,<strong>and</strong> if I did know of such an affair, I would be too embarrassed to tell you."Piqued, I had without malicious intent lifted an edge of the veil which vovered Alex<strong>and</strong>ra’s life <strong>and</strong> had found her naked inthe bed of a famous painter, <strong>and</strong> father tells me that this was none of my business?I added insult to injury. "How about Vladimir, for example?"There was silence on the line. Did father misunderst<strong>and</strong> me on purpose? I now regretted the edge in my question.Ashamed I listened to his tired, old voice."I told you, that Vladimir was fully occupied with Tamara in those years, he did not have an affair with my mother, <strong>and</strong> hecertainly did not go to Paris with her. But you are right, Mother did accompany Izabel to Paris in 1911 to cover up Izabel’sflight from the Okhrana. There existed an enigmatic postcard she wrote to <strong>Konrad</strong> from Paris. It was written in code. Sheapologized that she had deserted him so willfully. These were the years during which my parents’ marriage was badlystrained. — But I have never heard of a painting of her by Modigliani."Next morning I called the museum to ask for the provenance of the painting, but the Museum refused to discuss itsdetails over the phone. "Sir, we are sorry, the condition of this loan was that the owner remain anonymous. Beyond thatthe provenance of the painting is described in our catalogue raisonnée which you can buy at the exhibition desk."I went back <strong>and</strong> purchased the expensive catalog. It would provide me with a fair reproduction of the painting, which Iwas unlikely ever to see again.In the commentary I found the following history of the sales of the picture in the telegraphic style of the art dealers whichcan speak volumes, hide fates, jealousies, madness, <strong>and</strong> occasionally more."Nude reclining on her left side". Loaned anonymously. Tentatively dated 1911, Provenance.: A. Dadiani, St. Petersburg1911; S. I. Manovsky, Paris, 1912; private collect. Zürich 1918; Sotheby auct. catalogue #115, London 5 Oct. 1950;private. collect., Paris, 1950-present.Here was the final proof.My dear Alex<strong>and</strong>ra held on to the beauty for less than a year. Was the painting in storage? Was it too provocative tohang in their bedroom? No wonder my father knew nothing about it. And <strong>Konrad</strong>? Considering their sacred honesty, hemust have known of the painting. And in the end old Manovsky fell in love with it. 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survived the Bolsheviks, the Fascists, <strong>and</strong> the Second World War.What a temptation to play the sleuth <strong>and</strong> to uncover the stories hiding behind this lapidary history. But the actors were alldead. To my father’s distress, I would, once again, have to intuit the details of what happened to Alex<strong>and</strong>ra in Paris.Years later, among Alexe<strong>and</strong>ra's letters to Otto, I found the postcard from Paris which father had mentioned. A short notefrom the eloped Alex<strong>and</strong>ra. Had I not known of Modigliani’s painting, I would not have been able to decipher her crypticmessage.Liebster Mann, V. 15. 1911We arrived safely. H.’s suggestion was excellent, we reached P. without a hitch. The city is full of expatriates from everycountry of Europe. I was introduced to S. I. M., interesting man but deeply depressed, <strong>and</strong> I also ran into my patient <strong>and</strong>scientific subject A. who is having an affair with an Italian painter!I feel remorse for having overruled you so high-h<strong>and</strong>edly in my restlessness, <strong>and</strong> also because my heathen soul refusesto recognize neither sin nor guilt.I love you truly <strong>and</strong> dearly. A.So she had met Sasha Manovsky in Paris, where, I learned, he had taken refuge from the Okhrana in 1907! At first, thisfact <strong>and</strong> that he had bought Alex<strong>and</strong>ra’s painting, led me to some wild speculations.And with her patient A. she could only have meant Akhmatova. But how could Akhmatova have had an affair with anItalian painter in Paris in 1911, a year after she got married to Gumilev? Were the times even more corrupt than I hadassumed?I ordered a biography of Akhmatova from the library. My eyes grew large. Akhmatova had visited Paris with Gumilev inearly May 1911! Gumilev had been called back to Russia by some family matter. He had left Akhmatova behind.Independent, young, <strong>and</strong> lovesick as she was, she sought consolation in the arms of charming Amedeo Modigliani.Modigliani made several drawings of her in the nude. Resolute Akhmatova never made a secret of this affair, one of thedrawings remained in her possession until her death.Later I would find that the postcard showed a photo of the Isle Saint Louis. Strange, why not the Eiffel Tower? DidAlex<strong>and</strong>ra stay on fashionable Isle Saint Louis? I searched a map of Paris, on Quai d’Orleans, which the postcardshowed, are no hotels, only private houses. And finally, why should she have carefully kept this postcard with theconfession of her remorse?Simple, this card was the only memoir of Paris she had!She had sold Modigliani’s painting to Manovsky.Ingeniously Alex<strong>and</strong>ra had made a tiny pinhole through the photo which connected a house at 16, Quai d’Orleans withthe M. on the other side! That I found out only on a second, careful examination of the postcard. Manovsky rented thathouse in 1911!53.Alex<strong>and</strong>ra in Paris1911Alex<strong>and</strong>ra sat across the table from a sagging, old Manovsky at the opulent Tour d’Argent. She looked onto the Seine<strong>and</strong> the lighted windows of the houses on the Isle St. Louis flickering through the plane-trees. A steady stream ofdroshkis flowed across the Pont de la Tournelle, <strong>and</strong> the Bateaux Mouches came <strong>and</strong> went like fireflies at the Quai belowher window.She had met Sasha Manovsky two days earlier at a get-together of a group of painters to which Izabel had taken her.Cheap red wine, conversations on painting <strong>and</strong> women accompanied by eloquent gestures, nostalgic memories of losthomel<strong>and</strong>s, heavy cigarette smoke filling the room. Except for an intellectual French writer all the men were expatriates:a short Spaniard with the build of a prizefighter <strong>and</strong> piercing black eyes, a h<strong>and</strong>some, boyish-looking Italian withdisheveled locks, an older, deeply depressed Polish sculptor, whom she avoided, two mistresses of these men, <strong>and</strong>Manovsky.Manovsky, his jacket open, dressed in tie <strong>and</strong> starched shirt, a golden watch chain on his belly, looked like a sitting bullamong these bohémiens. His French was pitiful. When he discovered that she spoke Russian, he clung to her. Theyoung men treated him with condescension. He was the patron who bought their paintings <strong>and</strong> paid for their debts. Aloof,they talked over his head.She observed Manovsky now. She had agreed to this dinner invitation, because of an undefined titillating fascination with165
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